Born to Be Ch. 11

Finally Selena stood up and hugged Ashley from behind in a surprise attack, "Babyyyyyyy...calm doooowwwn...they're your parents, they love you...it's going to be fiiiine." She kissed the hair on his head, so much longer and luxurious then it was when they last saw him.

Ashley's shoulders sagged into his Daddies comforting touch, bringing his arms up and hugging Selena's to his chest. "I know...I knowww...but what are they gonna think when they find out I have another Daddy..."

Selena couldn't stop the laugh that coughed it's way out of her throat hearing that. "We don't have to tell them what you call me babygirl. We don't have to tell them anything if you don't want." She leaned over his shoulder. "Look, I love you. And I'm here for you through this. You started dressing and acting like this because of me. And I love every second of it, but if you're not ready to go to your parents with this, we can always just pretend that it's not happening?" She offered, drawing Ashley's gaze up to her. "We can...just for the day, go buy you a boy's outfit, and cut your hair. It'll grow back so we don't have to worry about that, just for a day if you're really nervous..."

That was actually a lot coming from her. He started the whole dress up deal way back when just for her to begin with. And the fact that she was willing to actually let him back out of it for a bit to hide his secret from his parents, that meant a lot. Including offering to get his hair cut! Selena talked all the time about how much she loved his hair, it was no small offer from her speaking about getting rid of it. She must've been very concerned about him, and willing to take her own plunge if it meant keeping him comfortable.

But Ashley shook his head, "No no no I can't do that. That would be lying straight to their faces, I'd rather lie to them over the phone."

Selena huffed, "Or maybe just...tell them the truth?" Ashley whined against her, "Look, we don't have to be brutal about it. We can tell them straight up, it was my idea to start with and you just...are comfortable like this. You said it yourself your parents love you, I see no reason why they would disown you or shut the door on us. If you're happy they'll be happy, I'm sure of it." she rocked the two of them back and forth in a comforting manner.

Eventually Ashley took hold of her hands, "I know...I'm just...I don't wanna disappoint them..."

"How would you have disappointed? It's not like you did a complete gender swap and got rid of the boy bits?" Selena teased, "You've still got all your parts, and you still make plenty of fertile sperm to produce heirs!" She spoke with a high and mighty voice, like she was addressing an old timey prince. "And plus! You have procured a buxom, dark skinned temptress to your bed chambers! Who you make love to every night without fail! The jealous eyes you receive on a daily basis are countless my Lord!"

Finally she got Ashley to laugh, the sweetest little chuckle helping to lighten the mood up just a bit. "I...I mean..."

"You're still their son...you just like to play dress up with me...so I can get my sick...sadistic desires satisfied." She leaned in and took a good bite of Ashley's ear.

"Ah! Stoooop..." He moaned a little, blinking the big brown orbs of his up at Selena. "I know that but, this is my choice too. You told me when I first started that I didn't have to do any of this, I didn't have to dress up like a girl and act like one in order to make you happy." He explained, "It was my choice to commit, to do it all the time and try to get as accustomed to it as possible. You told me you'd be happy without it, or even just a little kinky roleplay with it every once in a while. But I wanted to go the distance to show I was ready to be with you completely. And doing so made me realize how to come out of my shell. I was a nervous little guppy as a boy...I mean, you saw me."

"I'll never forget, I wanted to eat you alive the moment I saw you." Selena continued to tease.

But Ashley rolled his eyes, "Just today I got whistled at in the street and I didn't even flinch. I even made a comeback to them and it felt so good. Just feeling so strong, so proud of my body and my looks. Before I always was kind of bundled up, hiding, putting on the most friendly face I could but...I hated how small I was. Boys aren't supposed to be small, weak, and not muscly at all, they're supposed to be the exact opposite. That's why I was so shy about myself, but...as a girl..." He spun around and hugged Selena directly, "I feel perfect."

She set her chin down on his head, "You are perfect honey. So perfect." She kissed his crown again and continued rocking them both. "And if all of that is true, then maybe you just need to tell it to your parents' faces, the same way you just told me." Ashley was silent, Selena stroked the hair running down his head to his back. "Show them how happy you are this way, and again, you're still their son, you'll always be their son. And I still call you my boy toy sometimes, you never complained about it."

He chuckled, "That's different."

"Different as iiiin...it makes you horny so it's okay?" She poked his side, only to be met with a cute, playful kick to her shin.

"Shush you." The couple smiled, continuing to embrace each other for a long time. Still going back and forth about how they wanted to do this.

It was a few days before Thanksgiving, and Ashley kept flip flopping on how he wanted to go about this. At one point he wanted to call them back and just spill his guts about everything to them, another time he wanted to make up an excuse to not go and put it off until he was more ready. But each time, Selena managed to talk him out of it, they needed to know. His family needed to know that he was happy, they deserved the truth and not to be kept in a shadow anymore. And if they couldn't accept him for what he was now...well he'd give it time, and maybe that would help. But if not, he still had Selena.

The days went by slowly, and now they were in the master bedroom. Once again finding themselves in a conflict over what Ashley was going to show up to his parents house in. He wouldn't show up in boys clothes. They needed to see him for who he was now, but he didn't wanna dress slutty, or revealing, and he didn't wanna look ridiculously girly either. There was a limit to how you should handle these things. But he couldn't seem to find the one happy medium that made him feel like it was just right.

Ashley stood now in their walk in, throwing one outfit out of the closet, followed by another, and another, very unlike the neat freak to just let his clothing scatter all over the place like this while Selena watched.

"Urg! I don't even...what do I wear?" Ashley ran out of the closet in just a bra and g-string and leaped for the mattress, plopped his body onto the bed and groaned. "I swear I have nothing to wear to any occasion ever!" He flipped over dramatically and throwing his face into the pillow.

Selena raised an eyebrow, "You get like ten new outfits every week? Nine out of said ten are usually purchased by yours truly." Selena teased, smiling as she packed her own suitcase. Filling it with just two simple outfits for the weekend stay. Another phone call from Andy and Tabitha suggested that since it was Thanksgiving weekend, and they wanted to get to know Selena more, they would extend the simple dinner invite to a whole weekend stay. The house they lived in still had Ashley's old bedroom available for the two of them to sleep in so it would work. Since Ashley told them that he and Selena were living together, his parents didn't mind, 'he was a grown man who could make his own decisions.'

So Selena packed two day and night garments. One to look super nice for their first meeting, and another for the casual day they had planned after. With two sets of relaxed PJ's.

"But this is different!" He lifted his head, "What do girls wear to impress their parents?" He sat up and scooted closer to Selena, "I'm so nervous...I just wanna make them proud of me not...confused or disappointed."

"Babygirl..." Selena lowered herself to Ashley's level and cupped his face, "You will neeeever be a disappointment. Okay? And if it's really bugging you that much we can go out and buy you another fancy dress right now, but I'm telling you, they'll love you no matter if you wear the button up blouse, or the sexy cheerleader outfit." She grinned.

He rolled his eyes, "You better lay off the naughty business also while we're there!" He pointed his finger at her, which Selena instantly nipped at with her teeth. "I don't need my parents thinking I'm a disappointment whose dating a deviant!"

"But you are dating a deviant." Selena winked.

"Ugh!!! No help!" Once again, he dramatically threw himself over, now laying prone on the bed with his face plunged into a mixture of blankets and clothes. "I wanna diiiie!"

"Oh stooop it you." She abandoned her suitcase and knelt down beside the bed, leaning over Ashley's lower half. Bending herself to place a kiss on the cheek of his exposed tushy, then grabbing both of them and rubbing the jiggly flesh affectionately. "It is all gonna be fine okay? Maybe we'll go with something modest, but cute. So they know you're not doing this just to get off on a weird kink, but that you're comfortable and happy. And cute so they can see themselves just how rocking you are in girly clothes." She offered, running her hands up and over his butt, then back down the back of his thighs, stroking and caressing his legs.

Ashley hummed into the pillow, "Hmmmmmh..." Half a pouty whine, and the other half appreciative of the touches. He wanted to protest more, but she had a good point with her suggestion. Only problem left remaining was picking out something that fit that description.

Selena continued to give him a little leg massage, "Listen to me honey..." She climbed up over him, straddling his calves, and rubbed all over his limbs. "Everything is going to be fine, I can't promise you that enough. Your parents love you, and even if it's tough for them to handle, I'm sure they'll eventually understand." Her large, feminine hands went back up to his ass and squeezed the cheeks again. "And I'll be there the whole time by your side, when they get one look at me? And see what a fucking rocking babe you scored, I'm sure they'll understand."

"Wow, aren't you modest." He mumbled into the pillow eliciting a cheeky giggle from Selena. His back rose up as he drew in a bunch of air, then deflated as he breathed out a sigh. "I'm just scared. I should've kept them up to date on what was going on with me and with us. But...as much as I was confident around you and others after a while, I just couldn't muster up the strength to tell my parents. Especially my dad..."

"Why? Is he...rude towards this type of stuff?" She asked still rubbing.

Ashley shook his head on the pillow, "No, no, he's not like a hater or anything. But...he's a father with one son, and his son is gonna just pop back into his life after being gone for a while and saying, 'hi dad I'm a girl now!'" He shifted so his cheek was pressed into the pillow and he could glance out the window. "I'm worried...I don't wanna disappoint him. He worked so hard to raise me. My mom did too of course but...I owe my Dad so much..." He went on somberly, "He worked three jobs when I was really little...so I didn't get to see him much."

"Three jobs? I thought your family was well off?" Selena asked.

"We are now." He corrected, "But we didn't start that way, my Mom couldn't work for a long time when I was growing up so a lot of financial responsibilities fell to my dad. And it's not cheap raising a family on one Salary, accompanied with hospital bills and lots of other legal bullshit. So he had to get more than one job in order to support us. Meaning I got to see him less than I would've liked to."

Selena tilted her head, "Hospital bills? What happened there? And why couldn't your mom work? Did she get sick?"

He shook his head, "Well...not really... see...after Mom had me...there was...complications." Ashley spoke, Selena still rubbing along his limbs, but being gentle, rising up to his lower back at one point to get there as well. "My mom she...she always wanted a big family. I was her first baby but...after I was born...something really bad happened, and long story short...my Mom couldn't have babies anymore."

Selena stopped rubbing for a moment and looked up at Ashley, "Oh..."

He nodded, "Yeah...I remember...when I was...maybe three or four, sleeping in bed with mom one night. Dad was asleep beside the both of us, and she told me, 'Mommies gonna go to the doctor, and try to get all better so she can give you some baby brothers and sisters Ashley!' And, I remember being so excited that I couldn't sleep, and Mom was the same way, we talked about what we'd name a boy or a girl, and what we could do to play with them for hours until I passed out... Then she was gone for a couple days, and my memory is a little hazy but, we had to go to the hospital a bunch of times. Mom was, sad a lot there, but Dad always managed to comfort her." He took a breath slowly before continuing, "I found out years later that...mom went in for surgery, something to...basically try and fix what was wrong, what was preventing her from being able to conceive or something. Again, I don't pry much on the subject because...I know it really broke my mom's heart." He drew invisible circles on the pillow next to him. "See...the hospital...made a mistake...there was a complication in the surgery and...it made it...much...much much worse..."

Selena felt her heart beginning to drop, "What...what did they..."

Ashley shook his head, "Something stupid, and something bad. I'm pretty sure the doctor got fired but I don't know. My dad sued the hospital which, only stacked up more bills in all the court costs and such. Mom couldn't work from the process, and also she was...so depressed. I remember her lying in bed all day everyday for so long, and I could hear her crying through the wall at night. Dad sometimes could get her to sleep, and sometimes not. But...with mom not able to work, hospital and court bills, he had to take a bunch of jobs and...yeah..."

Selena's motions on his back slowed to a crawl, suddenly feeling so saddened for Ashley's mother. She seemed so happy over the phone? Who would've known that she had gone through such trauma. "I'm...I'm so sorry Ashley."

"She's okay now, but it was just a hard time. And after the case was settled, my Dad kept going at his jobs until one of them offered him a position higher up. So he could quit one other job and focus at that. Then again, he worked there long enough, got another promotion and quit the other. So on and so on, so now we're well off, but it took a while to get there. But basically, they both showered me with as much love they could possibly give. I'm their only baby, case in point, why I don't want to disappoint them." He finished, settling back into his pillow again.

For a moment after that, Selena stopped rubbing Ashley, thinking over everything he just told her. She hadn't even met the woman yet, but again, she heard her voice. Sounding so full of life and love for Ashley, so excited to see him, and so ecstatic at the thought of him having a girlfriend. She just sounded so...happy. It was hard to imagine a woman going through such a dark time like that.

"She just...wanted more kids?" She gently inquired.

Ashley nodded, "Mhm...I remember her always telling me five was her dream number, but she wouldn't object to more." He smiled gently, "She was the best mom, and a trooper too, wanting five babies after me? Geez." He managed to a little chuckle at that, thankfully giving Selena an opening to continue to soften.

"Well...what about...grandbabies?" She tilted her head, sliding the tip of her finger along Ashley's bare back.

He paused, letting her question sink in for a second before he lifted and twisted himself just enough to look at her over his shoulder. "What?"

Selena smiled, "Relax, I don't mean right now. But...what about grandbabies? I know it's not the same but...we always could give her a little piece of the dream she wanted." She was brought back to their conversation outside Vanessa's house, watching the children playing on Halloween. Thinking about what it would be like to be a mom, with Ashley as the...other mom?

And the visions the two of them had of a future like that weren't unpleasant at all, they were beautiful. "W...well...I mean..." Ashley stuttered again, "She...may or may not have asked me about grandkids a little bit." A little bit was definitely a lie, as soon as Ashley was old enough to know where babies came from, the talk of grandkids was definitely a hot topic with his mother.

Of course she wasn't forcing or pressuring him or anything, she just made sure he knew that there was an anytime of the day, any day of the week, babysitter on standby for him once he started making beautiful little babies.

Selena smiled, "Well...what if we tell her that we're...thinking about our future, and starting a family?" She offered tentatively.

Ashley felt his heart skip a beat, "We...we are?"

"Relax...again not right away, we're just getting into a nice groove with our lives." She patted his bottom playfully, "But...ever since you mentioned babies on Halloween, I'd be lying if I told you I haven't thought about it."

"Really?" Ashley wanted to turn over fully, but she was still straddling his legs preventing him from turning around to fully face her. So he elected to just glance at her as best he could like this, another baby conversation deserved his undivided attention. And hearing that Selena had thought about it was more than enough to cause a slight swell of elation in his chest.

They were still probably too young for babies, but it was something they could have fun talking about and planning for.

She nodded, lightly stroking her fingers along his legs while she explained. "Mhm...and...I know that...well...I'd have to...you know...be the...Mom." It looked as if Selena was beginning to blush. "But...I love you, and...I...I think I'd...be okay...with that..." She lifted her knuckle to her lips and nibbled it nervously. "And...a little you growing inside me is...kind of a really pretty thought." She smiled the most girly smile he'd ever seen from her.

It was almost like Ashley couldn't catch his breath, taking in every one of those words, processing them one at a time. She wanted to have his babies?? Bare his children?? This was crazy!!! And...awesome!!!! But Ashley was so floored by this realization that he ended up just staring at Selena, paralyzed in wonderment for nearly a full minute after she finished explaining. Only after she leaned in a little more, raising her eyebrows curiously did he shake his head out of it, "Oh! Um, I...ahaa..." His face was far pinker than hers, "I...I...really like that thought too..."

Selena chuckled, "Well...don't get too excited, again, I didn't mean we're making a baby right now." She suddenly slapped his booty with a delightful 'clap!' and drawing a surprised squeak from him. "I just mean...maybe we can give your mother something she's always wanted. If we make a bunch of little me's and you's in the future, I think she'll be much more inclined to accept you and your dad I'm sure will be happy for his wife getting something she's dreamed of."

It sounded like they were formulating a plan to win over the affections of his parents, and honestly, Ashley kind of liked the idea, it was definitely a long game type of plan. But if worse came to worst, they could always fall back on it. So he smiled up at her and nodded, "Well, I guess we'll just hope for the best for now then. We won't have to worry about winning their affections with babies if they just accept us right off the bat."