Emma Awakened Pt. 03

"Honey, I have something I need to tell you."

Nothing good ever followed those 9 words after they've been uttered by a spouse. Usually, it meant you were going to get some bad news. Maybe it was that your wife wrecked the car or maybe your husband lost $100,000 in Vegas. Right now, I was expecting her to tell me that, yes, she really did know how big Tyrese's cock was when it was hard. She hadn't fully gotten control over her body yet after having cum twice in quick succession. Her hips were still moving around, and she was still catching her breath, but her demeanor was no longer focused on fucking. There was something bad that she needed to tell me, and that put her animal sex brain into the background. My mind was racing! I couldn't imagine how she was having an affair with Tyrese! Where did they find the time? Where did they find the place?! Did that start just this week? She said she was not giving herself to him last week when she was under hypnosis. Surely, they could not have fucked while they were running the after school program! I was preparing for the worst.

"Umm, okay. What is it?" I asked.

"I don't know how to say this. I'm so ashamed!" she started to cry.

"Well, you got this far. You should just spit it out so we can figure out how to deal with it, whatever it is." I said, trying to use my psychiatrist training.

"Okay. I guess.... well..... you know..... Ugh! It's so hard to say! Okay, here it is. You know how I have told you that besides you, I have only ever slept with 4 other guys?"

I looked at her in silence, but nodded slightly indicating to her that she should keep going.

"Well, I'm so ashamed! It's really five." she finally said.

"I see. And who did you leave out?" I asked. I wanted to hear it from her.

"It's...... it's..... Ugh! It's JAKESH!" and she broke down crying.

Jakesh? I was momentarily confused because I was totally prepared for her to say Tyrese.

"Wait, Jakesh? You mean the guy you went out with in high school?" I asked.

"Yes! *sob* I lost my virginity to Jakesh, but I didn't think you would like that, so every time we talked about our sexual histories, I left him out and told you I lost my virginity to Michael in college."

"You didn't think I would like that because of losing your virginity in high school or because Jakesh was black?" I asked. I wasn't sure which bothered me more, to be honest.

"Well, both, but primarily because he was black. But, you see, it's not like he was some kind of gangster or anything! He was an exchange student from England!"

I had remembered that, vaguely. She didn't really talk about her ex-boyfriends a whole lot, just a few pieces of info. I remembered that Jakesh was an exchange student their senior year from the UK. Emma said her parents were initially pretty uncomfortable with letting Emma see him, but he had won them over with his charming accent and very polite manners. He was a smart kid who understood racial dynamics, so he did his very best to put Emma's parents at ease. He seemed to be successful, since they let Emma date him. She said they had trusted him to be proper with their daughter. So much for that, I guess.....

"Okay, so you had sex in high school with a black guy. Why are you telling me this now? Why didn't you just say so before?" I asked.

"Ugh, I still don't want to say it because it's in the past and not important to our relationship, but I also want to tell you the whole truth. I don't want to hide anything from you." she said, forgetting that she's been hiding soaking her panties and fingering herself in the shower all week from me. "Also, would you have taken it in stride when we met? Huh?! I don't think so! Not a lot of white boys are thrilled to hear that their 'good girl' white, Midwestern bred, girlfriend lost her virginity to a black guy with an enormous cock!" she cried.

"Enormous cock?" I said slowly.

"Jakesh..... had a very large cock." she said quickly. "A little over 9 inches long - I know because we measured it with a ruler - but also very thick in diameter. This strap-on has been bringing back some memories of when Jakesh and I used to have sex."

"I see. And you liked it back then?" I asked.

"Yes. Well, not really at first, but we got better at it." she said.

"How many times did you end up having sex?" I asked.

"I don't remember. Maybe....... 20 or 25 times?" she estimated.

"Twenty-five times?! You didn't go out the whole year, right?!" I exclaimed. It has taken over two years to have had sex 25 times with her leading up to now!

"No, we didn't. We started at the end of February. I remember because it was AFTER Valentine's Day, but it was still basketball season and we started going out at a basketball game."

"How did you lose your virginity?" I asked.

"Do you really want to know?" she asked.

"Yes. I feel like I need to know the details now that everything I know about your sexual history may not be true." I said, a little cruelly.

"It's not like that! I told you everything else but this!" she cried.

"Tell me. Tell me about how you lost your virginity." I demanded.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes, and the look in my face told her I was serious about wanting to know. She broke eye contact and started to tell the story.

"Jakesh and I had been going out for a couple of weeks before he got to '2nd base'. That was the furthest we went for a while. A couple weeks later we were coming home from a basketball game and I drove him home. We parked a couple of blocks from his host house and made out for a while. He was sucking on my tits when he slid his hand between my thighs and started to rub me. I was only wearing sweatpants and panties, so his rubbing was getting me going pretty effectively. It only took me a few minutes before I came. I started to rub him over his jeans, and I could tell right then that he had a big cock. He undid his jeans and I pulled his cock out. I must've stared at it for an entire minute without saying anything. I had seen a few pictures of some cocks, but never had seen one up close. I put my hand around it and couldn't believe how warm it was! I put my other hand around it and started to stroke it.

He said, "Hold on now, Ehm-ma (that's how he pronounced my name). I don't think we should make a big mess in your parents car."

I looked up at him and said, "You're probably right. It would be very bad if my mom or dad found cum in the car." So I did what seemed logical at the time, and I put it in my mouth, which proved to be challenging. He let out a big groan and I stroked a few times and sucked and it didn't take very long before he came in my mouth. It was a big shock to have that happen, but I had to make sure I took it all. He kept on spurting so I had no choice but to swallow the first few sprays, but when he was done I opened my door and spit the rest out. It tasted, well, like cum of course, but at the time I didn't know what to think of it. It was kind of salty. I didn't love it, but I didn't hate it either. And it was exciting to experience having him cum in my mouth. We talked about it and also about whether we wanted to take the next step. I was still really horny, so of course I was eager to experience sex! I had been a 'good girl' all the way up to that point. I wanted to push the boundaries a little. So we planned to do it at my friend's party the following weekend. He was going to get a condom and we planned to lock ourselves in Jenny's bedroom.

All week at school we talked about it, and I was a mix of excited and nervous. By the time Friday night rolled around, I was a complete nervous wreck, but i was also very aroused by the anticipation. We arrived at the party separately and hung out for a while before slipping upstairs. We sat on the bed for a while and asked each other if we were both still committed to doing it. Then we started to make out. I only wore a sweatshirt and bra in order to make "access" easier, and he quickly had my bra unhooked and was touching my nipples. He slid his head under my sweatshirt to give them some nice sucking and licking. Shortly after, he got up and pulled off his jeans and sweater, leaving only his t-shirt, underwear, and socks. His cock was already hard! It was sticking straight up out of his waistband. His underwear never had a chance of containing it. He pulled off my pants before laying back down, and so I was just in my sweatshirt and panties. We kissed some more and I started to touch his big cock. i looked at it in my hand. It was soooo big! I remember just staring at it. I wasn't sure how that was going to get in me. The light was better in Jenny's room than in my car, so I got a much better look this time. Jakesh was pretty dark skinned, but his cock seemed almost completely black. The head was so big, but since his cock was so dark it just seemed smooth. I put it in my mouth again because I liked how he reacted the last time. He threw his head back and gave a long moan. I could see what I was doing in the mirror of Jenny's closet doors. I couldn't believe I was giving this huge cock head!

Jakesh lifted my head off his dick and said, "I don't want to cum yet." he put his hand under my panties and started to rub. I was already wet, but it felt soooooo good! I hung my head on his chest and enjoyed his fingers exploring my pussy. Soon after he asked, "Are you ready?" I nodded and he got up and retrieved the condom from his jeans. he ripped it open and started to roll it down his cock. I lay there watching and thinking to myself, "This is really going to happen! I can still stop, though, right?" I was sooooooooo nervous! But he was ready now and lay on top of me. Thinking back on it now, it's kinda funny how inept we were at it. He must've tried pushing it in 7 or 8 times and it wasn't going. Finally he sat up so he could see what he was doing and then placed it right at the opening of my vagina and pushed it in.

I remember how crazy surprising it felt going in! I think I grabbed his arms in a death grip and I remember nearly screaming. And then he pushed in and I swear I nearly passed out! My body was clenched tight and I wasn't sure I was going to make it through. He then slowly started to pump that cock in and out of me. Every stroke, though, was better than the one before. I was starting to actually feel the pleasure of his cock when he started to make cumming noises! I was like, "No! NOT YET! I JUST GOT OVER THINKING I WAS GOING TO DIE AND I'M NOW STARTING TO LIKE IT! YOU CAN'T FINISH YET!!!!" But it was too late. No more than maybe 90 seconds after we started, it was over. He came and pulled out and slumped next to me.

"Wow, Emma, that was amazing! Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah, that was nothing like I've ever felt before!" I said. It was true, but I couldn't help be just a little frustrated that I got all hot and wet and didn't finish. We kissed a little more and then got dressed. Jakesh rolled the condom up in some Kleenex and took it outside to the trash."

"So that's the story of my losing my virginity to Jakesh. It's not anything earth shaking. It's probably a pretty typical 'high school girl loses her virginity' story."

"Well, except your boyfriend had a horse cock." I said.

"So? It didn't really even matter! It was over in under 2 minutes."

"Yeah, but you went back another two dozen times." I said.

"Well, yeah, I guess."

"You said you guys got better at it?" I asked.

"Yeah, it got better the more we practiced." she said, trying to sound nonchalant about it.

"Tell me about it."

"Seriously? Do you really want to know?" she asked.

"Yes, I do."

"Okay. The next several times were a lot like the first. But he knew I was not getting as much out of it as he was, so he tried to figure out how to keep from cumming so fast. The good news was that i was starting to figure out how to handle such a huge cock. I started to relax myself, and it helped that I knew it was coming. We had only done Missionary still since we were still just figuring out how fuck. But now I was entering the 'pleasure' zone without having to go into the 'pain' zone first."

"When did you have your first orgasm with him?" i asked.

"Ummmmm, I'm not sure. Maybe the 7th time? 8th? Something like that. We figured out that if we booked home right after school that we would have 2 hrs before my Mom got home from work. So it happened on one of those after school days."

"If you had 2 hrs, you didn't do it every day?"

"No, not every day. We couldn't leave right away every day because of clubs and I had tennis practice most days, plus he couldn't get unlimited condoms either, so that played into how often we did it."

"Okay. Go on."

"It started like every other time, but he said, 'I masturbated this morning.' 'Why?' I asked. 'So that I wouldn't have as much cum inside me. I've noticed that it takes longer to cum if I'd cum recently.' he said. 'We should do a scientific method study.' I said jokingly since we had physics class together. Anyway, fast forward to the fucking. He started to pump me like before, and it was feeling so good now. And he just kept going! We passed a couple of minutes and the warm feeling started to build in my pussy. I started to make cumming sounds - which are different from my OHMYGOD THERE'S A HUGE COCK IN ME sounds - and he started to pump harder. The crazy thing is that the orgasm that was starting to build was WAY different than the ones I'd give myself masturbating and the ones Jakesh gave me rubbing my pussy. It was building and i couldn't control myself anymore. I got to a point where I don't actually remember any details just that I was feeling AMAZING with that cock pumping in and out of me and that I ultimately exploded in a massive orgasm! Jakesh said I was thrashing around and beating my fists into his back. I had NEVER felt that good in my entire life until then. My massive cum explosion pretty much put him over the edge and he ended up cumming only seconds after i finished. I always love watching the faces of men as they cum, so I was kinda glad I was still coming down from my orgasm as he was cumming inside me. In some ways, I count that time as the real time I lost my virginity. Up until then, sex wasn't all that interesting."

"So did you cum every time after that?" I asked.

"No, but most of the time. Some times he still finished too fast or we had to quickly stop." she said matter of factly.

"What was memorable about the sex with Jakesh after that point?" i asked.

"Ummmmm, probably when he started to be able to go much longer that he gave me multiple orgasms." she said. "We got to the point where he was able to fuck me doggie style. As deep as he felt when he fucked me missionary, I couldn't believe how deep he felt when he was fucking me from behind. And because he was so thick and my pussy could barely fit him, every stroke rubbed both my clit and what I now know is my G-spot. It was soooo good! But it was almost time for him to go back home by then. The school year was finishing and he was going back to England in mid-June. And I was going to college in the Fall. I thought I loved him, so it was a very hard time for me." she paused to think for a bit there and then said, "You know, you should feel lucky you didn't meet me right after that. In a lot of ways, Jakesh ruined me for my next couple of boyfriends."

"Oh? How's that?" i asked. Could size be that much of a deal for my wife Emma? She seemed to not make it a big deal during the entire time we were married.

Was Emma a size queen already by the age of 18?

"Well, I was young and stupid. I believed if the sex was great then that meant I loved the boy more because it was more 'intimate'. And, of course it didn't help that Michael and Aaron had much more average sized cocks than Jakesh. But Michael and Aaron had other problems that had nothing to do with their cock size. Still, it didn't help that sex with them didn't really measure up." she said with just a hint of mischief.

"So you didn't have any more sex in high school." I said more as a statement than a question.

"No. After Jakesh left I kinda stupidly thought I was going to be 'faithful' to him. This was before the Internet, so there was no 'Face Time' or 'Skype' or text messages or even email. We had to write each other letters, which we did for a while. But the letters started to come less frequently, and by the time Thanksgiving rolled around, it was pretty clear that our time together was just going to be part of our past. During that time, there were a few boys who just wanted to mess around, but not many. Like I said, not a lot of 'nice' white high school boys are confident or manly enough to deal with a girlfriend who went out with a black guy." she said.

"So did other black guys want to go out with you?" I asked.

"Ugh, yes. There were some sleazy ones with too much product in their hair and some juvie types who thought I might be into them. And then some of the black jocks on the football and basketball team paid some attention to me. Some of those guys were kinda cute, I guess. But I didn't want to be 'THAT GIRL', you know?" she said.

"'That girl'?"

"Yeah, the white girl that only dates black guys. I didn't date Jakesh BECAUSE he was black. And I didn't give him my virginity BECAUSE I wanted to fuck a black guy. Him being black had nothing to do with it! It made things harder, frankly, with my family and some of my friends."

"So you didn't have another boyfriend in high school then?"

"No. I didn't date anyone until college. I was more pissed off, though, that guys thought maybe I put out. Jakesh and I never talked about the two of us having sex to anyone else, but there were still rumors floating around. I always denied it, even though part of me was sad that I had to. But some of those football players in particular got pretty aggressive. Thankfully nothing happened."

"So you didn't have sex until you went to Creighton? That was Michael, right? So did you tell him that you were a virgin, then?" I asked.

"Yes, I had to! I felt really bad about it because I thought that was insulting to Jakesh, but what he didn't know wouldn't hurt him. But I didn't want to carry around that stigma, so I just pretended I did some 2nd and 3rd base action but that was it."

"That's what you always told me." I said.

"You know, it got to the point where I think I might've started to believe it myself. I never told anyone about fucking Jakesh, and it was always Michael that I said I lost my virginity to. I've been living with that version of reality for more than 30 years! It's almost like I've blocked it out. I haven't thought about the sex we had really until lately."

"Why do you think that is?" I asked, trying to get her to keep talking.

"I dunno. I guess because it was so long ago. We were just kids, so we didn't know what to do. He really just had that large cock. Having a large cock just means he didn't have to be creative." she shrugged. "I remember that it felt good. Really good. But I also remember that while I gave him head several times, he never went down on me. I guess boys back then never did that."

"I remember when I was a teenager we'd try and steal some looks at pornos from back then. It happened in them, but not nearly as much as blowjobs." I said.

"It never really happened in college much either. Although, it did some....." she looked like she was recalling those memories. We were still both naked - I was still wearing the strap-on! - and she shifted her legs ever so slightly. "But it wasn't until my last two boyfriends - that includes you, sweetie - that I ever got a lot of good pussy eating action!"

"So tell me about college then....." I said.

"College was mostly boring from a sex perspective." said Emma. "Are you sure you want to hear about it?"

"Just give me the highlights."