Mine & Yours Pt. 01

And yet, Dante seems happy.

Shane catches me looking in his direction and gives me a smile and a small wave that I feel obligated to return.

The morning after our date, Shane came to check on me and also to give me some things from a pharmacy, he was even kind enough to get some other things for me at my request so that if something like that happens again I won't have to worry.

'So wait, was it a date?' Angela asks. 'Are you guys, like, a thing?'

'Yeah, it was a date.' I reply, 'he asked me and I said yes.'

'Did you guys kiss?' Angie asks me.

I should never have lied about liking Shane, but now it's out in the open, and I made the situation infinitely worse that night.

'We might have kissed a little.' I reply.

Tabitha looks at me critically with stunned disbelief. 'Did you do anything more than that?'

I look away to try and hide my face as I think back to that night.

I never imagined my first time, but I never thought it be in a car parked on the street a few houses down across from home.

Shane had been really sweet and patient. I remember how awkward we were in the car while fidgeting with our clothes, how I didn't care if we got caught, how it was so unlike me.

I remember the warmth of him, as warm as anything can be without being hot. How he helped to guide me over him, how he kept asking if I was sure. I remember slowly bouncing in his lap, the sounds he made when I did, how his lips felt against my skin. I remember how easy it became, how good it felt, how I didn't want to stop.

'You did not,' Tabitha gasps as she jumps to a conclusion she's right about, 'Cara you did not fuck Shane.'

'Would you keep your voice down,' I chide in a hushed tone, 'and language.'

'I can't believe it, my baby girl is now a woman. I'm so proud.' Angie says.

I know after that night Shane will want to do the right thing and he'll likely ask me to be his girlfriend, but I don't know if I should say yes.

I used him, it was wrong but Dante is with someone, and he'll never be with me. Which means I have to move on from these feelings, be happy with what lies in front of me.

'Wow,' Angie says, 'this must be a dream come true for you huh Cara?'

So what if I don't feel that way about Shane, I'll never feel that way about any boy who isn't my brother. And besides, I could do a lot worse.

'Yeah. I really like him and I think he likes me. So, thanks for telling him how I feel for me, Tabitha.'

'Oh, yeah, totally, of course. I'm totally happy for you Cara.'

I'll never forget that night with Shane, or how at the very end I had to bite down on my lip, just to keep from calling my brother's name.