Once It Gets Dark Ch. 02

I lay in my defiled bed, shaking and utterly spent. My head was spinning in confusion as I was beginning to sober. The room was hooded in darkness again and the tipsy feeling of his venom was fading away. It gave space for dread and realization. It was over. I was now one of the women that I had pitied from far away, believing somehow that it would never hit me personally. Well so much for that.

I thought I could already feel a pulling sensation in my womb, that was packed full of his seed, but I was probably imagining things.

I heard his hoarse voice saying something in Veril next to me.

"What?" I asked, my voice not sounding like my own, not sure if he was even talking to me or if I even cared.

In one gracefully fluid movement he was above me again, his arms caging me in. I looked up at him, too exhausted to try to fight him off. And there was another reason: I had thought that the venom had faded out of me, but at his sight my heart started to flutter again. Or was it not the venom? I wasn't sure anymore, he was so magnificent. His eyes had returned to their original golden color and I marveled at the elegant features of his face, his green skin, his pointy ears. He was so completely inhuman. Like a being out of a fairy tale -- like a fairy out of a tale. Until today I had never been this close to a Veril -- well to be honest I had never been this close to any man until now.

He gently cupped my chin with his hand.

"I should have taken you the first time I saw you," he said, looking deep into my eyes.

What did he mean by that? Had he been stalking me? I didn't know what to reply, I was too depleted, too scared, too confused.

"I will mark you now," he went on.

"Okay," I managed to answer, I didn't want to cry in front of him again but I already felt the water starting to well in my eyes.

The Veril marked each woman they had taken with a small glowing circle on their right cheek bone. This way everyone could see that the child the woman was carrying was of Veril descend. This meant that she was banned from all types of birth control or means of terminating her pregnancy. Any doctor or pharmacist who went against this law would face severe punishment. The mark was the last touch that sealed my new fate as a fallen woman.

"Make it look pretty," I said, trying to sound nonchalant and to distract myself from bursting out into tears.

He chuckled as he closed his eyes in concentration. He opened his left hand spreading his fingers wide.

Despite my fear I was suddenly watching him in complete fascination: I was about to see real magic up close for the first time in my life.

He slowly joined the tips of his fingers together, as if he was pulling something delicate out of the air. Then he separated his fingers little bit again, and I inhaled in awe: Little strings of blue light were dancing between his fingertips, as if he had plucked the magic from the void. For a moment I completely forgot about my miserable situation, I felt a childlike fascination: Mesmerized and excited by all the wonders that this world held, which I had not yet discovered.

"That is so cool!" I breathed out.

He smiled showing his pointy teeth, blue reflections of light were dancing over his face, "Turn your head to the side."

If I had been the same person I was just half an hour ago I would probably have protested. But I knew now that I couldn't fight him. I had of course already known that before, but there was a difference between understanding something in theory and actually physically experiencing it with your body. I had felt his inhuman strength, as he had made me submit to him against my will and I had not been able to do anything against him.

So I simply did what he told me to do and turned my head.

In the corner of my eye, I could see the glow of his magic when he pressed one finger against my cheekbone right below my temple. I shivered as his skin made contact with mine -- why did he still feel so good? I sensed a slight prickle followed by a sharp sting where his finger touched me, then it was over.

"Ow!" I exclaimed. "That hurt!"

"Poor little human. One would think that you are used to a little sting by now," he teased me, a cruel smile on the corners of his mouth. "I think, I should fuck you a couple times more to get you accustomed to being stung, if you react like this."

He let go of me and fixed me with an intense and puzzling gaze that made me nervous.

"Ch'ish," he hissed -- was that a curse? "I am getting hard again just thinking about how good you looked when I pumped you full of my venom."

I was getting nervous, I had expected him to leave at this point, but it seemed like he had other plans. The Treaty permitted him to keep me for one night -- from dusk to dawn. Did that mean that he was not done with me, yet?

I sat up my legs shaking from the strain they had endured when they were wrapped around him, and touched the mark on my cheekbone -- it didn't really hurt but I could definitely feel a presence, like a faint humming sensation when my fingers ran over it.

Trying to change the direction our conversation was heading to I said, "So I'm marked now, I guess that means I am no longer a respectable woman."

tried to joke but I could not hide the bitterness I felt.

"You are marked now," he answered. "So that everybody can see that you belong to me, that I took you and that you are carrying my child."

He placed his long index finger on my cheekbone. The mark seemed to buzz at his touch as if it recognized his creator.

"The mark is also for your protection."

"Oh, bullshit. The mark is for the protection of the Veril fetus, not of me," I shook my head in disbelieve.

"Is that not the same thing, considering that the child is inside of you? Does what helps you not help the child as well?" he asked, placing his hand on my lower belly.

His touch send a distracting tingle through me which I tried to ignore -- was there any part of my body that did not react to him?

"And in what way does this mark protect me, exactly?"

"Do you not know that?" he asked a disbelieving look on his face.

"We wanted to make sure that the women carrying our children would not have to pay for any medical treatment or medicine and will always have to be treated with preference at the hospital. Also, if you wish so, your government has agreed to give you free housing and food supplies for the time that you bear the mark."

That was actually news to me. How come I had not known that? My guess was that this information had not been publicized very much by the German authorities since nobody wanted to give desperate women the idea that sleeping with the enemy would actually pay off. But also this whole situation was very new, the capitulation had just been a little bit more than five months ago and all of it still seemed like an unreal kind of nightmare.

"Does that mean that the mark will eventually go away?" I asked.

"It will fade away in twelve moons. At that time the pregnancy should have come to term and your body should have recovered," he replied.

'So I can be bred again,' I thought. 'It fades away when they can use us again.'

I was hoping to keep this somewhat normal conversation with him going for as long as possible, since I didn't know what perversions he might come up with instead. The Treaty allowed him one night with me until the sun rose in the morning, and he did not seem to be thinking about leaving.

He grinned, his eyes sparkling: "So, if you wish to live with free rent and food for the rest of your life, just let me know, I am more than happy to keep breeding you again and again!"

I did not reply.

'I am going to have this fairy warrior's child,' the thought was still unfathomable for me.

He looked so out of place, with his leather armor, the scar running over his face, his arsenal of weapons slung over my desk chair. Like war incarnate sitting on my pink bed sheets in my messy student flat.

"Should you not have left by now?" I whispered.

He laughed, "Sweet little human, tonight you are mine from sundown until the sun rises again, and you can rest assured that I will not waste even one blink of an eye of that time."

I inhaled, I was tired and confused and scared. But also I was starting to get angry. Angry at the stupid war that Germany had started against the Veril; angry that, after stupidly starting the war they had lost it just a month later; angry that the men in power had saved their sorry skins by practically selling us young women into sexual slavery; angry that my life was over now even though I had always been against the war; and I was angry that I could not keep my eyes from the Veril demon in my bed who had ultimately destroyed my life.

"I hate this fucking Treaty!" I hissed. "I hate this fucking Treaty, an I hate the idiot of our fucking Chancellor, and I hate the idiots of your fucking Counsel and I hate that horrible general of yours, that killed half of Hamburg!"

There was a pause in which I think both of us were surprised by my outburst. I remembered how fast his mood could change and started to get scared that I might have angered him again.

But then...

"They are, indeed, fucking idiots. All of them," he laughed, and pulled me on top of him and kissed me.

I had not been expecting this but I did not even think of fighting. My body reacted instantly, the flames of desire igniting again. His hand was on the small of my back holding me tight as I sat straddled on his lap. His kisses were softer this time, almost sweet, and agonizing. I moaned against his mouth, it was like this man -- this being -- had put a spell on me.

Maybe he had? Who knew what his kind was capable of? I pulled him closer, playing with fire as I ran my tongue over his lips.

He reacted with a deep growl rumbling low in his chest, "You respond so well to me, mishtz'in. It is like you were made for me."

"Stop calling me that," I breathed against his mouth.

"Stop calling you what?" he purred, only slightly puzzled.

"That word: Mishtz'in," I responded. "It's insulting."

I knew I sounded ridiculous, given the circumstances, but it was really bugging me.

"What exactly do you think mishtz'in, means?" he asked, while he ran his hand up and down my spine underneath my dress.

"I don't know, like a prostitute or something like that," I was blushing.

He raised his eyebrows in surprise and burst out in laughter. He was so incredibly beautiful when he was laughing, it made my heart hurt.

He shook his head, "Mishtz'in means 'my sweet'. 'Mish' is 'sweet' and 'tz'in' means 'belonging to me'," he was still smiling, his sharp canines visible and his golden eyes sparkling.

My sweet? That was what he had been calling me the whole time?

"Is that true?" I asked.

"Yes," he was still laughing and I could feel the vibrations between my legs, where he held me pressed against him. I was getting wet again.

"Leave it to us humans to take a cute word, and turn it into a sexist slur, I guess!" I remarked, trying scoot away from him a little bit, to keep my wet slit from rubbing against him.

"Indeed," he gave me an amused look and pulled me back towards him again. His hand holding me tightly in place against his hardness.

"It is almost sweet, that your people have been using that word for ... us," I said choking on the last word, it was not easy to think of myself as part of these women.

"My sweet," he said, his mouth next to my ear. "It might be hard to imagine, but this is not how most Veril men wish to meet the mother of their children, either."

"And you?" I whispered. His closeness was driving me crazy, his strong body pressed against mine.

It took a moment until he replied, "Since the moment your people let fire rain down on our houses, I have not wished for anything but seeing your country burn.

"Until now," he added after another brief pause."

I swallowed, pulling away from him a little bit, as we were the ones suffering under the Veril regime, I sometimes forgot that it had been us who had attacked first, that the Veril had lost people as well.

"You never told me your name," I tried to change the subject. "I think you said you were going to whisper it into my ear, as you spilled your seed inside me, or something like that. But you didn't."

"I did not say I was going to whisper it to you the first time we fucked, or do you think I am here so we can have a nice conversation about politics until sunrise?" his hand closed around my wrist squeezing it just a little bit too hard.

He was hurting me and I decided that I was not going to spend the night acting scared of him with his threats and violence. He had already raped me and he was going to do it again but I did not have to give him the satisfaction of being a frightened little girl during all of this.

So I leaned close to him, running my hand through his hair and whispered in his ear, "Or maybe you could tell me your name right now, that way I will know what to scream the next time you fuck me."

I felt his grasp on me tighten a little at my words, he let out, a dangerously deep laughter and after a short pause he said, "Ren."

"Ren," I tried out the name. I found it beautiful and foreign, with the trilling "r" more like in Spanish than in English or German.

"Is that all? Do you guys not have surnames?" I asked.

He looked at me for a while, as if he was debating something, before he answered, "I think Ren is quite enough -- it is really not necessary that you scream my complete name and titles when I fuck you."

He was teasing me again but there was something pensive in the intense way he was fixing me with his eyes. Oh well, he did not want to tell me his surname -- as if I could make any meaning out of it anyways.

"My name is Anna," I smiled at him in the vague hope that knowing my name would make me more of a person in his eyes, that he might have mercy on me.

"Anna," he repeated, and I loved how my name sounded on his tongue.

"Annatz'in," he said, smiling down at me.

"Does that mean 'my Anna'?" I asked him remembering his explanation about the word mishtz'in.

"Yes, my Anna," he said and touched the mark on my cheek again.

"You are mine for tonight and for the next moons, when you will grow heavy with my child."

I looked at myself in the mirror on the wardrobe next to my bed. The mark was small but clearly visible because it was giving off a faint, undulating glow under my skin. Like bluish-white embers burning a sheet of paper. It had a round shape, and it seemed like it was formed out of small intricate lines weaving together.

I pushed away, wanting to take a closer look at it, he held my wrist for a moment, but then allowed me to move off him.

When I stood up I inhaled. The movement made me feel the soreness between my legs very distinctly, a reminder, of what he had done to me just a moment ago.

I could also feel his seed dripping out of me, running down my inner thighs, it was an uncomfortable, embarrassing feeling, and it also, to my surprise, turned me on a little bit. The thought, that this man had taken me, spilled himself inside of me, filled me.

I looked back at Ren and his eyes locked with mine his gaze darkening, as if he realized why I was hesitating.

"My sweet," he said, his voice dangerously low. "If you keep letting my seed run out of you like that, I will have to fill you up again."

I swallowed, his words made my inside clench together in want. God! What was it with this man, or better: What was it with me? Then all of a sudden he looked startled, his eyebrows knitting together. He got up in one swift motion, grabbing my chin hard.

"Why are you bleeding?" he asked.

"What?" my mind still somewhere else entirely.

"You are bleeding between your legs," he stated, anger flashing over his face. "You are hurt -- why have you not said something?"

"Oh," I said, finally understanding what he was talking about. Wow, Veril vision in the dark was incredibly good, for him to have been able to notice the blood of my lost maidenhood mixing with his seed running down my thighs.

"That's nothing." I was so embarrassed by this whole exchange. "I'm fine."

He let out this hissing word which must have been a curse in Veril.

"I can smell your blood! You humans are so fucking fragile, I thought that I had been careful enough."

I scoffed -- that was rich! He had not been carful at all, neither had he cared about my pain, when I begged him to stop.

"Do not make this sound at me, human," he hissed, making me stumble three steps back.

"Where is your phone? You have to call one of your healers."

He seemed genuinely worried, surely for the baby he thought I was carrying. He was looking around the room cursing again, as he searched my phone. He was terrifying in his worked up state, all barely contained rage and strength, and I had to summon all of my courage to speak to him.

"It's fine, really! I'm not injured. It's just the blood from... from losing my virginity."

He paused looking at me confused. Then I saw realization dawn on his face.

"You have not been with a man before me?"

"No." I wished the earth would swallow me.

"You should have told me!" Again the anger flashed behind his eyes.

Now he was really starting to piss me off. The audacity to blame me!

"You should have asked me, if it was that important to you!" I shot back.

He gave me an exasperated look, "Why in the world would I have expected a beautiful woman of your age to be untouched?"

Of my age! I was only twenty-three years old! He was acting as if I was some kind of old maid.

"I was waiting for somebody special!" I hissed.

He laughed as the irony of my predicament was not lost on him, "Well, you could not have gotten any more special then what I gave you." He stepped closer to me again.

"Yes, thank you, it was very special. Not really in the way I had hoped for but I guess it is what it is now." I gave him an angry look.

"If I had known, I would have been more gentle," he said, running his thumb softly over my cheek as if to emphasize his supposed gentleness.

He was really making me angry despite of how much he scared me. To him I was nothing but a fun distraction. He found my feelings, my fear, my pain, my anger and hope, amusing.

"No you wouldn't have! You said that you didn't care how much I screamed and that I should take everything that you gave me," I glared at him.

"I might have cared a little bit more, if I had known," he conceded, smirking down at me. He was not sorry at all.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked him softly.

"It is my right by the Treaty," he answered.

"Just because you are allowed to cause me pain that doesn't mean that this is right!"

He looked at me for a moment.

"Mishtz'in," he said after a pause. "This is war. I have felt and inflicted so much pain that it has lost all of its meaning to me. What I did to you is nothing compared to what I have done to others. This is war, and it is really very simple: I have won and your people have lost it. And no matter if you and I want it or not: You are my reward and I am your punishment."

"But I haven't done anything."

"No, mishtz'in, you have not done anything. Just like my people had not done anything, before your nation let fire rain down on our houses and I had to watch them burn."

I inhaled sharply in shock.

"Do not worry. I have avenged them. Thousandfold."

I looked at him in unease. What unspeakable things had he done? What things had been done to him?

I looked at the long scar running down his face, I had also noticed scars on his wrists and arms under my fingers, when I held on to him. Had he been part of General Tsul's troops in Hamburg? Kirtim Shenk they were called -- The Army of the Fallen Sun.

Honoring their name, they had attacked the city by sundown and when the sun had risen over Hamburg the next morning, every man or boy over the age of sixteen had been dead.