The Trappings of Love Pt. 03

"Come onnnn, cheer up dude," said Boston, half-joking around.

Josh aggressively shook his shoulders and started trying to pull away from Boston. He knew he was being a bit of a jerk but he couldn't help it. He was hurt and he was mad at Boston despite knowing he had no real right to be.

"Fine dude, fuck it. Be that way," said Boston as he got up, clearly stung.

Josh again felt a large surge of guilt knowing that he had hurt Boston's feelings. It didn't matter if he himself was hurting, it didn't matter if he felt like he needed to pull back from Boston. There was no way he could ever hurt Boston, even in such a seemingly trivial way such as this. He turned over, trying to grab Boston's wrist to stop him. Boston jerked his arm out of Josh's grip and laid down on his bed.

"I'm sorry okay, I'm just having a hard time right now," said Josh softly, sitting up in his bed facing Boston with his legs hanging off the bed.

Boston ignored him, scrolling through Instagram on his phone.

"Boston come on, don't be mad at me...I'm already feeling bad, please don't make it worse...please Boston," said Josh pleadingly.

It was the tone in Josh's voice that made Boston look over at him. Looking at Boston fully for the first time, Josh could tell that he was pretty heavily intoxicated.

"Okay but that doesn't mean you should be a dick to me, I was just trying to cheer you up," mumbled Boston quietly, clearly still hurt.

This was the first time they'd ever really had a moment like this in their entire friendship. Sure, they'd had disagreements and arguments much worse than this but that was moreso them getting mad at eachother for something or another. This time felt different for both of them, it seemed so trivial and yet both were feeling more hurt than angry.

What hurt Boston the most was that he was genuinely trying to be sweet to Josh in a way he didn't normally act only to feel incredibly stupid for doing so when Josh basically rejected him. He never rejected Josh like that so it hurt his feelings that Josh would do that to him. But he knew Josh was really having a hard time, thinking he was just feeling homesick and he knew Josh only had him there. He didn't want to make Josh feel any worse and it never even crossed his mind that this whole thing might be about him.

"I know you were and I really appreciate it, it means alot to me. I'll try not to let it happen again," said Josh, giving him an apologetic smile that Boston, like always, couldn't help but return and just like that, Boston was over it.

"Okay cool....so are we gonna watch a movie or something?" asked Boston. Both boys knew at this point that "watch a movie" was code for "cuddle" even though neither said anything about it.

"Yeah sure," said Josh after a brief pause, unable to say no to Boston again. "But you pick what we watch this time."

"Nope, that's not how this works. Put on one of your little sitcoms that cheers you up," said Boston with drunken sweetness as he got under his blanket, putting the first genuine smile on Josh's face.

Josh grabbed the controller, turned the Xbox on and sat down on Boston's bed next to him. He quickly put on his show, set the controller down and got under the cover with Boston. Boston extended his arm out behind Josh's head without looking away from the TV so that Josh could tuck himself into Boston's chest like he always did. Josh did so without thinking twice and immediately felt at ease finally. Boston, perhaps spurred on by the alcohol, briefly pressed his cheek into the crown of Josh's head as if to tell his best friend that he was happy to be laying there with him. Josh nuzzled his head ever so slightly harder into Boston's chest in an automatic response.

After a few minutes, the still tipsy Boston absentmindedly started running his fingers through Josh's hair for the first time. Josh's body erupted in goosebumps, not only from the feeling but mainly because it was Boston doing it. He had to force himself not to give Boston a little kiss on his chest. This was no easy task as he'd never felt such a strong urge to kiss somebody in his life. Josh asked himself why Boston had to be such a good guy. He wasn't making things any easier for him....yet Josh couldn't help but start wondering if Boston might actually feel the same way about him.

Laying there, clinging to Boston's chest as he ran his fingers through his hair, Josh began to realize that fighting it was just futile at this point. The feelings were already incredibly intense for Josh and he just didn't have the strength or desire to fight it anymore, at least not tonight. Josh pulled away the arm he had draped across Boston's stomach and placed his hand flat on the top of Boston's abs, feeling his six-pack for the first time under his unmoving hand. Josh resisted stroking Boston's abs with his thumb, thinking that would probably be a step too far. He was glad to have his penis tucked between his legs as he had a major boner that would definitely stick out far enough to poke Boston in the thigh if it was free to roam.

When Boston felt Josh place his hand on his abs, he realized he was playing with Josh's hair like Josh always did to him. He instinctively stopped doing so but kept his hand resting in his hair. Josh's elbow and upper arm were dangerously close to Boston's crotch at this angle. The cuddling suddenly felt much more erotic and intimate than it had ever felt before. It momentarily made Boston feel uncomfortable as he started considering what they were doing.

Boston wondered if what they were doing was a little too gay for a couple of straight guys to be doing. But he quickly decided that it didn't matter, this was his best friend and this was just something they did together. Sure, this was a little different but it's not like they were actually gay. Some people probably would call it gay but it's not like anyone would see them doing it so he didn't really care. He told himself that Josh's arm must be more comfortable in this position and that he probably wasn't even considering the fact that his arm was very close to Boston's cock. Boston felt his own dick begin to stir under the blanket but he was at a level of drunkenness that made it difficult for him to get hard. He quickly focused back on the TV before it could start working properly.

Josh felt ever so content and relaxed after just giving into his feelings and letting go. He felt so secure in the moment as opposed to the turmoil he had felt for most of the night to that point. It was a peaceful feeling that he welcomed after the stress of the night.

Boston, on the other hand, was suddenly acutely aware of his heartbeat and he wondered if Josh could feel how hard it was pounding in his chest. This seemed to happen whenever he drank alcohol and he did his best to ignore it. He resumed running his fingers through Josh's hair almost as if trying to soothe himself and, whether that was his intention or not, it certainly worked and he felt himself relax.

Eventually Josh fell asleep while Boston softly stroked his hair. When Josh started to snore ever so quietly, Boston smiled and eventually he reached around Josh to grab the controller so he could turn the Xbox off. He shifted slowly out from under Josh so that he could lay on his side without waking him up. Josh rolled over on his side, facing away from Boston and Boston rolled over so that their backs were lightly pressed against eachother. Being that they were in only a full sized bed and both being decent sized young men, this was typically the position they would reach every night while they slept.

It was a couple of hours before Josh stirred awake from a dream where the team won the college world series and Boston kissed him on the field as everybody cheered for them. It was Boston moving in his sleep that had woke him and he could feel Boston's presence in front of his face. Though the room was extremely dark, only being dimly lit from the light of the moon outside their dorm room window, Josh could see Boston clearly when he opened his eyes. Josh had rolled back over to face Boston at some point as he slept and, just now, Boston had done the same so that their faces were now no more than a foot apart.

Josh felt his heart racing as he gazed into Boston's sleeping face, listening to his heavy, rhythmic breathing. Boston's thin pink lips were just slightly ajar forming a small smile as if he was in the middle of a pleasant dream. Josh couldn't help but think about how effortlessly beautiful he was as he slept.

Josh felt his body trembling as he felt the desire to reach out for Boston's right hand which was resting on the mattress between the two boys. Before he could stop himself, he placed his hand on top of the back of Boston's and waited. When Boston didn't react, Josh gripped his hand a little more firmly. Josh's heart was pounding harder than ever as he continued to watch Boston sleep peacefully.

This did nothing to quell Josh's desire for more intimacy with Boston. Before Josh could consider what he was doing, he started slowly inching his head closer and closer to Boston's until their noses were nearly touching. Josh was holding his breath and looking deeply into Boston's face, searching for any sign of recognition or awareness that never came. Josh knew what he was about to do could go horribly wrong but at this point, he was unsure if he'd ever get the chance to do this with Boston awake and the lustful curiosity had been slowly driving him crazy. His ravenous desire for Boston was taking over and he just had to feel Boston's lips against his own at least once in his life.

Josh angled his face so that their noses didn't get in the way and scanned Boston's face from his eyes to his lips one last time before closing his eyes, licking his lips and leaning forward ever so slowly. Josh felt his plump lips brush against Boston's for a split second before he wedged Boston's bottom lip between both of his own. He was surprised by how soft his best friend's lips were. He wasn't sure what he was expecting but he just figured a guy's lips would feel rougher than girls' lips. He knew it would have been much better if Boston had been kissing him back but even still, he felt a spark the moment their lips came into contact with eachother.

He held the kiss for only a couple of seconds before Boston suddenly stirred ever so slightly in his sleep which caused Josh's heart to seemingly jump from his chest into his throat. He pulled away quickly and rolled over so that he was facing away from Boston and waited anxiously to see if he'd awakened his best friend, his STRAIGHT best friend, with a kiss. Would Boston punch him? Would he jump out of bed and yell at him? Or did he not even wake up, still unaware of what had just happened?

After about fifteen seconds, Boston hadn't moved anymore and Josh felt his pulse falling back to normal. He felt lucky that Boston had slept through the kiss and he felt guilt and shame start to set in yet again. He'd just risked his friendship with Boston for some sort of perverted one sided kiss. Suddenly, however, he felt Boston shuffle closer to him until he was being spooned by him. Boston threw an arm over Josh, who waited to see if Boston said anything but he did not.

Josh was acutely aware of Boston's bulge being pressed into his lower back which made Josh's already hard cock throb a little. Josh put his hand on top of Boston's hand that was pressed against Josh's chest, intertwining their fingers. It was hard for Josh to fall back asleep because he was feeling so turned on but also, he just really enjoyed cuddling like this with Boston.

As Josh laid there, he wondered if Boston had ever actually been awake at all. For all Josh knew, Boston might have just done it instinctively in his sleep. Of course, he'd never done anything like this in his sleep before but Josh couldn't be sure. The more he thought about it, however, the more he convinced himself that Boston had been awake and that this was Boston showing that he felt the same things for him.

After several minutes of thought, Josh made up his mind on what to do. He decided that he'd tell Boston how he felt tomorrow. He wondered if he'd get cold feet but, in the moment, he'd never been so certain that Boston had feelings for him too. He let himself imagine how great it was going to be when Boston admitted his feelings after Josh confessed his love to him. Soon enough, maybe even too soon for Josh's liking, he did drift back off to sleep with a contented smile.