by EmilyMiller
Heartfelt. Sad, touching, loving, romantic. A beautiful tale of friendship and love.
I also think it's wonderful to see a story about women supporting each other, not tearing each other down.
You put a lot of feelings into this, Em. And it shows.
Great job. You should be proud of it.
This is more a rant about Literotica structure than your story. The story is good, compelling and works through some incredibly tough issues. The problem is that it starts at a point that is never really described in enough detail for the reader who comes to Emily 8 parts in to a 9 part series a bit confused. This is, of course, due to the fact that none of the previous chapters were listed as Lesbian so those of us who primarily read here have no backstory or history with the narrator, and that is a shame
I'm not crying, you're crying. There's something in my eye.
This really spoke to me. Things can slip away with us hardly noticing if we let them. But when we let ourselves be open and vulnerable, that is often rewarded. We should tell the people who are important to us how we feel about them, but doubt can make it difficult.
@metroalma - hi, hun. First yes the ability to group stories in Lit is rudimentary, I agree. But… you have the wrong end of the stick. This is a stand-alone story, just grouped with others from the same (2-3 year) period of my life. Sure you can learn more about the “character” (hi 👋👋👋) from reading other stories in this section. But they are all stand-alone. Same goes for my college-based stories. I do have some stories with a chapter structure. They are mostly Ch. 01, Ch. 02 and so on (the Coleoidphilia trilogy is an exception, then you can’t read those independently as well). So we have a misunderstanding. Em
There's a saying in Latin. Can't remember the Latin, but it goes, "Sweeter for the difficulty." I.e., anything arrived at for which you have had to strive to achieve, which you have had to face adversity to get, makes your triumph all the sweeter for the difficulty you went through. Applies to everything in life. I cried when they realized they had been in love, and are re-affirming that now, after all their adversities! Well written!
The night is long, filled with doubt and guilt and fear. But without it, the sunrise holds no beauty. You have given us a story of melancholy and pain, but you've also given us the glow of the dawn. A story from the heart, a story to be proud of.
@vividhallucinations - thank you. Too many women have said they relate 😢. Em
A beautiful exploration of two traumatized women. The love they share is felt throughout and I'm happy that things are better for both the characters as well as you IRL. Thanks for sharing your talent.
Rnebular
As somebody who is a bisexual woman and has struggled with their mental health, This story hits home in SO MANY WAYS! Absolutely love this story you are a wonderful writer 😍
This is the first story of yours that I have read, and I'm very impressed by the quality of your writing. In particular, I was struck by how natural it feels. I look forward to reading more, although I suspect some stories will have too much kink for my tastes.
@NoLongerAnon - thank you. You may be right. But Jacob’s Progress is pretty mainstream too. Em
Emily is such a good writer and has a knack of making you feel you are part of the story. Definitely one of the writers to follow on LIT !!
Loved the story, just a little sad that the two of you did not stay together, living your best life, happily ever after.
I just read this for the first time...
It is a lovely story, it embraces many elements... Love... regret...Desire... Most importantly pain...
It is often a torturous path back to wellness.
Life doesn't have a lot of straight lines.
The paths are often winding, and surrounded by darkness.
This was a story within a story, and I thank you for writing it...
5 stars, and well earned.
Cagivagurl
You have earned another follower. Beside you I am but a pale aspirant, at best. I just know this- my awesome shrink heroine is a proponent of the CBT you depict herein. ;) Best of luck to you with everything. I hope you will keep up the good work. Thx for the recommendation. -AN
I must admit I only skipped read this, as a man ( a bloody old one at that) sometimes it's not easy to read about 'feelings' that might mean a lot to some, never convinced that anything is wholly true on the internet, but I acknowledge how good a writer you are so I have to let this one go.
@oldtwit - FWIW I think this is my best story. Depending on how you define best of course. Em
When I read, I hope to be lucky enough to take in something “real,” something written because the author truly “had something to say.” Something the author couldn’t hold back - something inevitable and genuine and theirs alone.
This feels like that...
@Victoria14xs - thank you so much for reading. And for getting it. 😊 Em
It's excellent, of course. Moving. And thoughtful. Exhaustingly thoughtful. After years, Amy returns to help Em through recovery from trauma. The trauma is left tediously vague, but apparently there was a violent man. Amy then reveals she has undergone a similar trauma, again left vague. I mean, was it a new lover gone berserk, or a partner just continuing to be the asshole he was, or was it a complete stranger leaping out of the bushes? What? I found this vagueness frustrating and annoying, as it seemed to imply "Well, you know those violent men... could have been just about any of them, right? No need to be specific." I suppose I just want to be able to prove it wasn't me. Oh, well. But then, in their renewed tenderness, the women realize that they used to be in love. So now what? So Emily, as a self-proclaimed unreliable narrator, provides us with an epilogue supposedly delineating the "facts" and the "fiction". Do we believe any of it? Do the rules tell us that Epilogues are actually reliable? True to the best of the authors ability?
@Midwaymack - a thought experiment for you. Could it be that two true stories are intertwined, ones that actually happened over a year apart. And that the combination leads to a kinda regretful, bitter-sweet what if? I’ve written in The Writing of A Hard Day’s Night about the perils of covering real events in a way that preserves a degree of privacy. Here it’s not even just my privacy, but Amy’s as well (and my therapist’s). Perhaps unsurprisingly, many women seem to have joined the dots more successfully. Common experiences maybe. It’s a story about women and frankly written more for women. But it doesn’t take a lot of effort to figure things out, just some empathy. It’s about recovery from trauma, not the traumas themselves. Finally, I was in no way trying to tease or mislead. It’s a work of fiction, but it’s also true. Thank you for reading. Emily
Emily, Everything you said is true. That's why you're so fascinating. Or, at least, that covers a large part of it.
I think you are a very brave person publishing a story of such a personal period in your own life and that of your best friend and former lover. You say this is largely true with some embellishments I feel the best therapy was that practiced on me by certain members of my own family not from a therapist. But you also had family with you in that you regarded Amy in that light. You are also such a good writer.
@Devilboby - thank you. I have a robust support network now, including the same therapist (who isn’t ethnically Chinese IRL) 😊 Emily
Great story very poignant and touching. Also great sex always therapeutic. Keep up the great work.
Nice. Very poignant writing. Sad if as you say autobiographical. I assume that from the story you suffered an attempted rape, whereas your friends Ames an actual one.
Noting the fork in the road comment, it sad that nothing become of the relationship, the 'what if' as you say. At the very least you may have both started the healing process a lot earlier, together.
Hope your life path continued to become better. I haven't read all your stories yet, but 'Desire' seems to fit your where you life has led to. Certainly hope that's the case.
Keep writing, at the very least it seems to be therapeutic for you.
V.
@Anon - we’re still best friends. Might have been more than that once, but life moves on. Emily