Power Versus Submission Ch. 06: Cost

With that said it appears from what Tahlia has told us both that it is not in your best interests for either Dad or I to ring the police at this stage. I don't know what's happened to you, whether it be by blackmail, coercion or simple force but there's not really anything we could tell the police anyway as we don't really know what's been happening.

It is true Tahlia did rape me, and it was horrible, but it would have been even worse if Denny hadn't shown me in the weeks prior that I am a lesbian. Tahlia's obviously hot and I know I'm not the first girl she has done that to but I think the consequences of reporting what she did to me outweigh the primary benefits. It simply isn't worth going through a court with all the details that are likely to spread out that will most likely do nothing but embarrass us both.

With Dad though it is a different matter. He is deeply hurt more so by the fact that you have been hiding secrets from him. It was always his belief that this was not the type of marriage you have and he is finding it difficult in himself to forgive you. He doesn't know that he will ever truly be able trust you again. And he is struggling to come to terms with the fact that you just ran away like a little girl (his words) instead of staying to support him. He sees that as an act of betrayal. He was devastated to find what had happened to our photos after those Girls that drugged and used him had left. He is still blaming you Mum, I think you will just need to give him some time and space initially before you try and talk to him again.

Sorry this is so long Mum, we haven't been able to contact you obviously given the way and manner in which you left us and there's a lot that needs to be said. But I am going to finish this note by letting you know we are staying with Aunt Jenny for the time being. Dad said she had the largest house with spare rooms for us both and was also least likely to gossip to the rest of our family about your separation. Dad is absolutely humiliated by not being with you Mum, you know he is all about family and the thought that his marriage could just be another divorce statistic, is embarrassing for him as it should be for you.

I know there's a lot to go through but I believe love conquers all and you guys will be fine. As for me, well I will always love Denny but unfortunately her loyalties remain with Tahlia, which is fine by me, I think our attraction was more just about lust than anything else, I know there will be other Girls out there who I will be able to form a much firmer connection with in future.

Mum, we both love you, please look after yourself, and please get your thing sorted out with Tahlia quickly so we can go back to being a family again.

Lots of love and kisses,

Carly.

I put the letter down on the table, pulled out a chair and just sat there and cried and cried. Sorry I don't mean this to be such a sad story but that's simply what happened. When your heart breaks and you are responsible for such hurt and angst I don't know how else I could have possibly acted. It was hardest knowing what I have put David through and reading terms like separation, divorce statistic, humiliation and the fact that he did not want to talk to me at that point. I had no idea where my phone was having just got home but I did know I needed to make contact with them, at least to apologise and to tell them that everything was going to be okay. That I would get counselling and find a place that might help me rehabilitate myself, to stop me from surrendering and to seek assistance in overcoming my current addiction for abusive sex.

It would have been an hour or two before Tahlia came sauntering down the passageway from my bedroom. I hadn't moved from my chair and she acted as natural as anything, as if there was nothing unusual about her being in my house, in fact she didn't even say a word as she walked straight past me and to the fridge to grab herself a drink.

She was dressed casually in Carly's clothes, tracksuit pants and a sports top, her feet were bare.

On the way back from the fridge she walked to the opposite side of the table pulled out a chair and hoisted her bare feet up onto my dining room table pointing her bare soles straight at me. For a moment she tried to engage me in eye contact but I simply couldn't bring myself to look at her. Instead of saying anything though she softly whistled at me, as someone would their pet dog,

'Look at me puppy.'

I raised my eyes to look at her. Nothing had changed, she still had this same mischievous spark in her eye, that cheerful look that I had noticed practically from the first moment we met.

'You run away again and I will come looking for you. Is that perfectly clear?'

I just dumbly nodded while desperately trying to understand why she had such a hold over me.

'You're still mine. You still have rules to follow and procedures that you must adhere to. None of that has changed. I told you this would happen didn't I? Right from the very first morning we met I told you very clearly I would take everything you have, I warned you that very first time you submitted to me. I asked you if you understood that where you were was the last place in the World you should want to be. Do you understand now?'

I hated myself so much at that time, this girl had essentially ruined my life, yet there I was just sitting there still in awe of her. My eyes were drawn to the soles of her feet, I know she had put them on the table deliberately, she knew I would look, I had just spent the past two days reflecting on how stupid I had been in submitting to her yet when it came down to facing her again in the flesh suddenly getting better and reuniting with my family was the last thing on my mind, I simply melted. My body melted, my brain melted, my pussy leaked. This schoolgirl held my strings and she could jerk them in any way she wanted and for some reason I just let her. I looked back up at her from the soles of her feet and she smirked at me. She knew I was still hers.

'We've had a good weekend puppy. Our producers are very happy. It is the material that is seemingly not consensual that sells the best. Everything with Shandi was planned. Even down to her taking a piss all over your memories, do you remember you admitted that as a fantasy to me during our first day together? Apparently you didn't notice Lisa taping everything either? Lisa not only dances at the same club as Shandi but she is also a professional photographer from our film producers. The way they edited everything that went down with Shandi was brilliant. We will sit down and watch it together later. Shandi is coming around she wants your tongue on her pussy while we watch it back. Everyone made a lot of money which is why I am going to overlook your behaviour of these past two days. We made three films with Carly. She was good about it, almost as submissive as you once we broke her. Honestly Robbie that was so much fun what we did to her. And you've just read her note so you know she's okay.'

It struck me almost instantly that the note was too nice. I couldn't help but think if Car had been coerced into writing it and if she was still being influenced by Tahlia. The content seemed genuine though. I know Tay hated being questioned, but I had to ask,

'Tahlia, can I just talk to you for a minute please? Yes I know my place, and I know you don't like me asking you things but there is some stuff I need to clear in my own head, please?'

Her expression didn't change, she was cheerful and happy. In her mind I am sure she had won. In my mind she had won as well I guess, she had cleared both my husband and daughter out of my house, and still controlled me despite myself. I couldn't help but to think back to that first morning I had met her, where I was the adult and she was the schoolgirl, and cringe that I could be so pathetic as to actually seek permission to speak to her on equal terms.

I half expected her to interject immediately, to put me back in my place, I hesitated for a moment, I was that intimidated by her now and this mysterious power that I had let her gain over me, whether it be real or imagined. But she said nothing so I continued,

'I get it, I can see that I am trapped and there's little I can do to stop you.'

Tahlia laughed, 'there's actually nothing you can do to stop me but anyway . . .'

I let my gaze drop submissively again before looking back up into her bright eyes and continuing . . .

'You said I should trust you and the moment I did you swept my family away from me. You sexually assaulted my daughter and arranged for my husband to be drugged and assaulted.'

Tahlia quickly interrupted me again,

'You should trust me Robin. The best thing for you right now is for David not to be here, I don't care so much about Carly I can take care of her but if I am to take over your house, which is what I am doing, to make your life better, then David can't be here. You were in a loveless marriage to him, you cheated on him constantly, lied to him, broke his heart, you don't deserve him Robin. You've got what you wanted from this, to be dominated by Girls and Women half your age, you're fulfilling your fantasy but in reality there always comes a cost. Now you may continue if you want to but I do not want to hear another word about David, this is not a debate Robin. This is your reality now.'

My anger boiled for a moment, I loved David with all my heart, our marriage was not loveless and I had and forever will dote over him. No, I didn't agree with what she said but I also knew she was right, what decent fantasy didn't have an actual cost in reality? After all isn't that what makes them fantasies? In pursuing mine there was going to be a cost but I always thought I could control it and not hurt anyone but myself. My own foolishness was my true downfall.

I couldn't argue with her so I continued,

'Was that letter Carly wrote to me genuine? Or do you control her too now?'

'It was genuine Robbie. Sure I read it before I sealed the envelope for her but I never changed a thing. What happened between me and Carly is really none of your business. But you know I'm going to tell you all about it because it turns me on like crazy to think you could betray her like that. But then again betrayal seems to be a thing with you doesn't it? Carly and David both betrayed by you so you can continue to be my little puppy. Come over here and lay beneath me Robbie, dogs like you don't get to sit at the table.'

Tay laughed as I steeled myself,

'I'm not a fucking dog Tahlia!'

Her eyes flashed immediately but only briefly before she smiled again,

'Yes you are, you hurt the two people in your life who love you more than anything because you love me more than them. Now get the fuck down here and lay at my feet while I explain a few things to you.'

Tahlia pulled her chair away from the table so I could lay on my back beneath her, she lifted her feet from my dining room table and rested them on my face, one on my forehead, the sole of her other foot pressed heavily against my mouth gagging me.

'Good, down in your happy place where you belong. Don't you dare fucking question me again! You're a fucking dog Robin, my good little puppy that puts me in front of her own family. You will learn to accept this as your new place in life beneath my feet. The faster you learn that you don't need to worry about anything but pleasing me the better off you will be. Imagine Robbie, no more bills, or job or schoolgirls to try and counsel. You won't ever have to worry about David or his needs again, he is upset now, but he will survive, probably even find a new lover to take your place in time. You won't have to worry about Carly or which boys or girls she dates, she will live her life like I have mine, looking after herself and learning from her mistakes.'

I was uncomfortable beneath her, her feet did rest heavily on my face and I was determined to get myself out of this, the contract I signed was for only a certain number of movies, she couldn't legally do this to me. I just had to be strong, stand up to her . . . and then I remembered the times I have tried to stand up to her and failed every time. I actually lay there considering the possibilities of my only worry in the entire world being Tahlia and doing what she said. Just to become her mindless toy, my pussy melted at the thought, I was in a dangerous territory again now where my compulsion to edge was taking over my sanity. I could hear her talking excitedly above me,

'We made three films with Carly, as well as the one Lisa made of you with Shandi and David. Then there is that video from last week where you got to lick all those girls in that toilet at Northland. They've all been massive hits. The previews have been watched hundreds of thousands of times. There have been many thousands of purchases and our producer's website has increased his memberships ten times what it was before we met. I've made so much money puppy I've had to start hiding it. You and Sara both have new accounts to open up for me under your own names and there are a few other adults I know I can use that way too.'

I tried to shift her foot from my mouth and grabbed at her ankle so I could talk to her but she wasn't moving, she hadn't finished yet.

'Don't worry though, our producer is setting us up with a business model, his company will act as our adult company or something, I didn't bother myself with the details. But you will be an employee so while you won't need any money now while I am in control we will be putting in a weekly wage for you to draw on once this all finishes. Speaking of finished, we're done with Carly now Robin.

The movies we made with her are hot but there are hundreds of girls like Carly that we could film so I've released her. Once we've made them submissive it takes away the forced aspect that our customers enjoy the most. She is on Flea's watch list though in case she tries to do anything that might get us in trouble, but for the time being I don't intend using her again. You read the letter, there will be consequences if anything gets reported. Flea will take care of that and Shandi still has David wrapped around her little finger, though he is a squirmy little thing. Fortunately for you though he doesn't want to do anything that may get you in trouble and I also think he secretly enjoys fucking Shandi but she calls all those shots and gets a kick out of using him as her slave, as she calls him.'

I tried putting my hand up for permission to speak but all I got was Tay smiling down at me from above.

'I'm not finished yet puppy, plus dogs only get to woof when they want to say something.'

She laughed, 'you are going to have such a good time these next few weeks Robbie, maybe I could teach you some doggy tricks to perform in front of my friends when they come over. Instead of sticking that hand of yours up so uselessly in the air why don't you use it instead to unbutton your pants and start edging for me like a good girl.'

I had to turn my brain off, stop all this concern for what she was doing to my life, and let my desire take over. I pulled my pants down over my hips and gently started circling my clit, just teasing myself the way I had been taught to edge over these past few weeks. Tahlia had instructed me so often now on how she wanted me to do it, it was like a second nature. Her foot still rested heavily on my mouth,

'You know it's funny Robbie, as soon as you pull down your pants and start to finger and rub yourself for me I can actually feel the tension leave your body. It feels so much better doesn't it, to surrender, and just let me take over. Keep rubbing for me now, the way I like you to do it, nice and slowly, let that pleasure consume you puppy, feel my weight above you, think about me as your new boss now. That's right you don't have a job any more either puppy.'

I was grateful to be in my sexual haze as this new reality once again started to clash with my fantasies. My job. I hadn't been back since Tahlia arranged me to have leave. Shows how my mind has been lately, I didn't even think to go there these past two days I had been away. My job used to be my life, helping young women in the ways I have been able to, so proud to have turned so many young lives around. I couldn't help but think of some of my success stories over the years and just how disappointed they would be in me if they knew how far I had fallen.

'You and I are going into your work tomorrow Robbie, I've arranged a meeting with your boss. I've spoken to him on the phone and he agrees the best thing is for you to resign effective immediately. I have agreed to meet with you both in his office tomorrow to tell him my side of events. You will give him a glowing verbal report on my status and together we will convince him to close my file.'

I knew I had to try and fight her, try and do something to stop her from doing this to me. David, Carly and now my job all gone. But at the same time I couldn't keep my hand from the inside of my underwear, fingering myself, gently rubbing my clit while Tahlia rendered me so helpless and casually ruined my life. I could feel the fight leaving me as I started to realise more and more how much easier it would be to give in than to fight for the things society told me I should.

How much easier would it be for me to stop trying and instead just be a puppet for Tahlia and a slave to my desires? To give up on my family? On my life? On my independence? I couldn't believe that I could think this way but while Tahlia had me edging I just couldn't stop. I'd already lost so much. Above me she continued to talk, I listened as she told me how they used Carly, rubbing myself, getting wetter by the second while I listened to her tell me how they sexually molested my daughter against her will.

'We took her back to Sara's place Robbie. She was keen to come of course, when we left here I had Car thinking we were all mates but as with everything I had already planned out our evening, I'd already promised Flea from the very first day we met you and I showed her the photo in your purse that she could have her fun with Carly. And it all went like clockwork, well except for Den, it's the first time ever I had to leave her out of our plans. You know her and Carly were true girlfriends? That they genuinely loved each other? So when we got to Sara's where all the cameras were set up and I forced Denny to betray Carly to prove her loyalty to me, there were many many tears. Our producers loved it Robbie.'

I kept dutifully edging getting more and more aroused as I listened to my own daughter's sexual assault,

'I made Denny choose me or her. Then when Denny chose me I made her beat your daughter up. Then I made her hold her down while first Sara and then Flea and finally Denny herself all had orgasms on her face. Carly was hysterical when Sara used her, she was confused by how Den was treating her, about how this girl she thought she loved could possibly hold her down, pin her arms to the ground and watch her be raped by an adult woman.

Given how submissive she eventually became, I think if it was someone closer to her own age that was assaulting her rather than an adult woman Carly might not have been as terrified. But the way Sara sat reverse on her face so that Carly's cute little nose wedged right up her bum hole would have been horrifying for your little girl Robbie. Sara said she learnt that position and how good it felt from the time she did it to you. Carly heard every word. I knelt down beside her and whispered to her the whole time Sara was using her.

I whispered about whether she thought anyone actually really did love her . . . first betrayed by her own mother and then her first ever Girlfriend. Then used like a piece of meat for pleasure by a girl who could easily be her school teacher. I asked if she could smell what Sara had for dinner with her nose lodged so far up her butt. I don't know if Car was paying attention to me, she was having enough trouble simply breathing under Sara's arse.'