The Reluctant Submissive Pt. 01

--- And when you think of that woman, do you picture your girlfriend? ---

There was a pause from Ryan. He knew he should tell the truth, but the truth was that he didn't see Nikki as his dominant.

--- No Master, I picture her Mistress. ---

--- Interesting subbie. Let's move onto your second selection. More chastity I see, but you like the idea of a woman using you in this way, do you? ---

--- Yes Master. I enjoy the added intimacy of pleasuring a woman orally. And this time I did picture my girlfriend, Master. ---

--- I see. But I suspect you are thinking a little too much about your pleasure here, rather than hers. How would you have felt had she lowered her bum hole to your mouth instead of her pussy? ---

--- That wouldn't have been anywhere near as appealing Master. I'm not sure I would go through with that. ---

--- But as a submissive it's not your place to pick and choose subbie. You will have agreed some limits and it is up to your dominant what happens. ---

--- I understand Master. ---

--- I wonder if you really do subbie. No doubt we shall find out. Now, your third selection. You like the idea of being dominated in front of a group of women? ---

--- Well, I'd never really thought about it until I saw that tweet, Master. But there is something about the idea of being naked in front of a group of women. And my girlfriend does have a couple of really attractive friends. ---

--- Interesting. And having your dick whipped in front of them? What's that all about subbie? ---

--- I like the idea of them being entertained by my suffering Master. ---

--- Maybe we have the makings of a good submissive after all. I'm sure we shall find out more over the next few weeks. Now, let's look at the things you feared. This first one subbie. I thought you liked the idea of chastity? ---

--- Yes Master. But not at the cost of having my penis pierced. ---

--- What does that mean subbie? That you like the idea of chastity as long as it's not too permanent? That you don't want to be made to suffer, you want the enjoyment of being submissive without any of the downside? What if your dominant decided they wanted you pierced and locked that way? I hear that chastity using a piercing is the only way of being sure the chastity is inescapable. And we wouldn't want you cheating would we? ---

Ryan didn't respond immediately. Discussing the first selection of tweets had been kind of fun, discussing things that turned him on, even if that involved himself taking on the submissive role. Suddenly the discussion had become a lot darker. It dawned on him that being submissive meant he had less control over certain situations. His thoughts turned to Nikki and the suffering she had been through at that first meeting with the Mistress, her body jumping under the blows from the whip and the crop. Yet she had withstood it and her reward had been what she had described as the most mind-blowing orgasm she had ever experienced.

--- What's the matter subbie? Cat got your tongue? ---

--- Sorry Master. You made me stop and think a little about what submission really means. Giving up a level of control. Accepting what your dominant wants. ---

--- Well done subbie. That's what this task is all about. Making you realise this isn't all going to be fun and pleasure for you. Submissives suffer, but they do so in the knowledge that their suffering pleases their dominant. And from that, they take their own pleasure. ---

--- Yes Master, I think I am beginning to see that. ---

--- So if your dominant wished it, would you agree for your penis to be pierced? ---

--- If I was in a long term relationship I might consider it but I think it's unlikely Master. It's one thing putting up with temporary pain or punishment, but life changing piercings are a different thing altogether. ---

--- Good answer subbie. I like that. It's easy to get carried away and just say what you think the dominant wants to hear without actually believing it yourself. That sounds like a more truthful answer to me. And truth is a good thing subbie. Now, tweet number two. Explain yourself. I thought from earlier you liked the idea of a dominant woman making you suffer? ---

--- Yes Master, but this is a very different scenario. In the earlier one, there seemed to be a connection between the man and woman. Although she was whipping his manhood, the main object of the exercise was to embarrass him in front of what we assume were her friends. It conjures the image of a couple in a relationship. This is very different. The woman in this picture looks like a professional dominatrix and she has his balls at her mercy. She could ruin him. ---

--- I think you are right about the dynamic subbie. This woman does look as though she does this for a living. Which from the submissive's perspective is probably a good thing. You would think she knows what she is doing and how much punishment the man can take. In a way, that is probably a lot safer than a couple having some kinky fun. If people that don't know what they are doing get carried away, they have the potential for much more serious damage being done. ---

--- I see Master. When you put it like that, I see that image differently. ---

--- The thought of your balls being cropped in itself doesn't worry you then? ---

--- Well it does. But the fear I had when I sent you that image was the thought of submitting to someone who was setting out to do permanent damage to me. ---

--- Then I think you have your answer subbie. You should only ever submit to someone you trust. Do you trust me subbie? ---

--- I'm starting to get a little more comfortable with the idea Master. But I still don't really understand why you've insisted on this as the price for N..er, my girlfriend's freedom. ---

Ryan had suddenly realised, almost too late, that the Dom he was talking to didn't know their identities.

--- I'm doing this because I want you to understand what it means to be submissive. You are very lucky in that you have a girlfriend who, from all accounts, is committed to her submissive nature. Because of how she has found out about her submissive character, you are also being completely open with each other, so she doesn't have to hide that side of herself from you. By understanding the thought process she goes through, you will better understand what she is experiencing. That is valuable whatever your role in her life, as her dominant or as a vanilla partner supporting her in a relationship with another dominant. Do you think you could share her in that way subbie? ---

--- I hadn't really thought about any of this as a long term arrangement Master. ---

--- Well, maybe you should. I think you will find that now she has discovered her submissive side, she may not want to live a purely vanilla life again. ---

--- Yes Master. ---

Ryan was already starting to realise that rather than this arrangement being for the Dom to get some strange sexual kicks, it was becoming a learning experience for himself.

--- Don't forget subbie, one of the reasons I made these arrangements is because I want to test you. I've not known your girlfriend for long, but the way she has performed serving me and what I've heard about how she interacted with her Mistress suggests to me she is a very special lady. Most of the people I have interacted with submit to get a kick out of it. Once they've experienced giving themselves to another and the initial excitement dies away, they get bored of it. Your girlfriend is the opposite. The more she experiences, the more she craves. That's the sign of a true submissive. I want to make sure you understand her, appreciate her and support her in whatever way you can. ---

--- I want that as well Master. I know she is a special lady and I don't want to lose her. Being truthful, this new side to her has surprised me a little and I'm still getting my head around it. I don't know what it means to our relationship going forward, but it has made me realise I want to be with her more than ever. ---

--- Then we are on the same page. Final tweet then subbie. What's not to like about this one? Have you ever had anal sex with your girlfriend? ---

--- No Master. ---

--- So why is it on your scary list subbie? ---

--- Well, I guess it's because of what it represents. Being on the receiving end. Being penetrated. ---

Ryan wasn't sure what to type next so he pressed send.

--- You're wondering whether it brings your sexuality into question aren't you? Asking yourself how big a step it would be from this to being penetrated by another man? ---

--- Yes, subconsciously I think I am, you're right Master. ---

--- OK, next lesson subbie. You need to understand this because it is important. In a D/s relationship, the submissive is in control. The dominant should always respect the submissive's limits and feelings. That's not to say they always do what the submissive wants, but if there is something you're not comfortable with you explore it together to understand why. So with this, the bottom line [pun intended] is that your dominant owns your ass. Now if your dominant is female, the fact you've entered into that arrangement should suggest you are comfortable with the sexual aspect of the relationship. Unless you've put this down as a hard limit for a specific reason, medical maybe, she can fuck you in the ass. But you are free to stipulate you never want to be taken by a man. And one of the most important ground rules to set early on is the involvement of third parties. A lot of couples into D/s will just keep it between themselves and that's fine. Then it's clear the act is and will only ever be between a man and a woman. Understood? ---

--- I think so Master, yes. ---

--- I know this is all a bit strange. We're both men and you didn't initiate this arrangement. You're going along with it. I get that. But I suspect you've got a thought at the back of your mind that I'd like to fuck you and that's making you question your sexuality. Well let me put you right on that. I'm straight. And this is only ever going to be online. What I'm going to do is use different techniques to push your boundaries, because that makes you question yourself and your feelings as you do the things I demand of you. At some point I will ask to see you naked. That's not because I want to get off looking at you, it's because the act of showing yourself to me in that way clearly defines the roles of dominant and submissive. It's a taboo, a line for you to cross. Naturally very few of us are comfortable being naked in front of someone else. I want to see if you can do it and how it makes you feel. ---

--- Thank you for explaining it Master. It makes more sense now. ---

--- Good. It's something else for you to think about. Did your girlfriend talk to you about her first time with her Mistress? How she felt being used sexually by another woman? ---

--- She said it was one of the most amazing nights of her life Master. ---

--- But did she say why? ---

--- Because she wasn't in control. ---

--- Exactly. I suspect it wouldn't have mattered what happened that night. She was in the submissive zone. Subspace as it is called. I think your concerns over your sexuality are a sign that you're not truly submissive by nature. Yes, you aren't excited by sex with another man, but I suspect the real fear is not being in control. For you it's frightening not liberating. Deep down, it doesn't matter whether it's a man or a woman dominating you, the fear is in giving up that last element of control. With the image, I suspect you're not actually worried about the sex of the person entering you, it's the fact you lose control of the situation. How rough they are, how deep they penetrate, when they stop. You don't have a say in the sexual encounter for the first time in your life. ---

Ryan didn't respond immediately. He was looking at the image of the woman with the strap on in a completely different way. Another message arrived.

--- Whether this little experiment of mine works remains to be seen. But hopefully you understand this isn't about cheap thrills. I want you to use this time to explore yourself. As for me, I'm a dominant and I enjoy dominating people. This is the first time I've been in this situation with a man and I'm curious to experience the dynamic because of what I've heard about your girlfriend and your Mistress. So I'm exploring as well. New ground for us both. ---

--- Thank you Master. There's lots for me to think about. ---

--- There is subbie. I think we should stop there for tonight. I don't want to overload you. ---

--- Thank you Master. ---

--- Now you have your little trip coming up soon, so I'm going to send you a couple of tasks to work on and we'll have another of these sessions on Friday. There's also some shopping I'd like you to do before you go, I will send you the details. ---

--- Understood Master. My plans have changed a little. I'm travelling tomorrow afternoon when I finish my shoot and staying away for two nights. I will be back late on Thursday. ---

--- Thank you for the update subbie. I will be in touch. ---

And with that Ryan's first session with his Master came to an end. It hadn't been anything like what he had expected. He thought back to how the dominant had interacted with Nikki when they had first met and it was clearly a very different arrangement. Maybe he was being serious, maybe this was a learning opportunity for Ryan after all.

Ryan woke early the following morning. He'd drifted off to sleep with thoughts of the exchange with his Master swirling in his head. He also kept thinking of something Nikki had said not that long ago. That for her, the attraction of being submissive was the fact that she had no control. She was relieved of the burden of having to make decisions. As Ryan juxtaposed Nikki's words with those of the Master, he started to realise that this world they had started to explore was about so much more than some slightly risky sexual fetish. He wondered whether there was a role with which he would be comfortable and that made him worry about his relationship with Nikki. What if the world of dominance and submission wasn't for him, when it was apparently something Nikki was excited by?

The ring of the doorbell suddenly dragged him back to the present. He'd been on autopilot all morning he suddenly realised. Getting dressed, having breakfast and checking emails; he'd taken none of it in. As he looked at the video phone and buzzed his model for the shoot into the building, he shook his head to clear his thoughts. Time for work.

The shoot went really well. Becky was one of his regular models and the two of them seemed to have an almost telepathic understanding, Becky moving into positions that just worked, delivering great photos without Ryan needing to do much in the way of direction. They were finished just before lunch and as Ryan closed the door behind the departing model he decided to get ready and set off for the Lakes early.

He was just finishing the last bits of his packing when his phone pinged. He hadn't been expecting another message from the Master so soon, but there it was. Opening it, he realised life was going to be a bit different for the next few weeks.

--- Have you finished your shoot subbie? ---

--- Yes Master, about 30 minutes ago. ---

--- Very good. You have 2 minutes to strip to your underwear, take a photo of yourself and send it to me. ---

Ryan was taken aback by the demand. His initial reaction was one of indignation that this man was interrupting his day. But then he thought about the time limit and rushed to the bedroom. Quickly shedding his clothes, he stood in front of the mirror inside the wardrobe door and took a photo, positioning the phone to obscure his face. Then he sent it, not bothering to add a message.

--- Just in time subbie, well done. ---

--- Now I know you're away for a couple of days, so two tasks for you. Do these every day, wherever you are, until I tell you to stop. The first is to spend at least 30 minutes on Twitter looking at submissives, preferably males. Retweet your favourite image or gif, then message me to explain why you chose it. ---

--- Second task. I am about to send you an image that shows what are called 'submissive positions'. You are to practice these every day. Start with 1 minute in each position. You should perform these positions naked and preferably in front of a mirror. As you look at yourself, imagine it is your dominant gazing at your body and think of what that would feel like. ---

The image arrived soon after. There were 12 separate pictures in the image, each of the same man in different positions. He was naked in them all, some of which were inoffensive, some were explicit. Under each was a name for the position. Ryan found himself captivated by the pictures, trying to imagine how he would feel in the positions. Then another message.

--- Message me when you get to your hotel subbie. I will have one more task for you tonight. Have a safe journey. ---

--- Thank you Master. ---

Driving up the motorway, Ryan found himself thinking about his exchange with the Master. Putting the time limit on the task of sending the picture had been clever. Now, in the cold light of day, Ryan began to think of the dangers of sending pictures to a stranger. But at the time he hadn't thought about it at all, his focus had been on the time limit. And in any case, there was nothing explicit in the photo, people posted such pictures on social media all the time, though admittedly most tended to be younger and more attractive. As he chuckled at that image Ryan's thoughts turned to a time when he would be asked to send a photo of himself naked. He recalled some of the photos of his girlfriend this man possessed and then he remembered the submissive positions. How would he feel when that time came?

He remembered the conversation with his girlfriend when the arrangement with the Master had first been suggested, how Nikki had accused him of being hypocritical in that he had allowed her to send photos and was then baulking at the idea of doing so himself. Then the words of the Master, that this was a test of his love for Nikki. Ryan could see that this was a way of him getting to understand her submissive tendencies, he just wasn't convinced he would be able to see it through to the end.

Dusk was falling as he arrived at the hotel. He introduced himself to the receptionist who immediately called for the owners, a middle-aged couple who it transpired had retired from well paid jobs in London to run the hotel in a part of the country they had grown up in. They encouraged him to eat before they showed him to his room as their restaurant was soon to close and the two of them sat with him as he ate, explaining their ideas for the hotel and suggesting some photos they felt would work well on their website and social media channels. Ryan took it all in but was longing for his bed after the long drive.

Eventually he was shown to his room, a spacious double with a bay window. He had no idea what the view looked like as it was now dark, but the window was the centrepiece of the room and Ryan found himself curious to see what the view offered when he woke in the morning. He didn't bother to unpack, instead locating his bag of toiletries before cleaning his teeth and then stripping off his clothes. He was about to climb into bed when he remembered the tasks his Master had set. He decided to skip the retweet task until the following morning, thinking correctly that it would still be complete before the Master woke in his time zone, but decided to try a couple of the submissive positions. Calling up the message on his phone he opened the picture and looked at each of the images, considering each in turn.

Wait; full frontal, hands behind back, legs spread. Explicit, everything exposed to the viewer.