by Pixiehoff
As Cleeve said of Chapter 1 ….Wow !
You tell this story with your heart my darling Pix.
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June.
My darling June, this is for you, for us - and I am glad that you like it xxxx Love you xxx
Thank you so much my darling - you mean the world to me and you know how hard this is to tell xxxxxx
The depth, the love, and the reality has emotions flowing in each possible direction. A work of perfection. 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
I didn't see this coming l, not even in hindsight.
But love is not a zero-sum game. If love is shared between more than two people, it can enrich everybody's life. We just have to keep this thing called - what's the word? - jealousy out of it.
I have no idea what will happen next, but I feel it will be all right.
Thank you, darling Wolfie - the tone changes, is darker, more uncertain; there is a storm, of sorts, coming xxxxx
Thank you for looking back on what must have been a difficult time for you, and sharing with us.
Thank you Nolonger - the next one is the hardest I have ever written xxxxx
I don’t even know what to say. I have been enjoying “Cynara” and suddenly this story drops. The two stories couldn’t be more different on their face, but as one looks deeper, similarities become apparent: Both have incredible weight and depth; both are crushingly beautiful and revealing. (If ultimately painful / cathartic for the author). I’m still processing my thoughts and feelings about both stories long after the reading; Pixiehoff has a way of doing that to me, and I love it. More please. 🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿
Thank you, Anonymous. Cathartic is the right word. The final part is up tomorrow xxxxx
It seems wrong t o enjoy such a heart-rending chapter, but I have to report that I did enjoy this. I had no idea of your condition, Pixie. Indeed, I'd never heard of TS syndrome. You write so graphically, not only about the physical pain, but the mental anguish too. This is a beautiful, bitter-sweet essay, Pixie. I hope you are getting better and that your ankles (and your heart) are soon mended and working properly again.
As we both know, life can be cruel, you are in my heart Pixie, like it or not. Your writing inspires me to do more, to be better. Both as a writer and a person. Yes, hindsight would be wonderful for us all.
A very powerful piece of writing, very enjoyable in a sad way.
Thank you, Olwen. Bitter-sweet it is. At least my writing gives me a way of processing things, so I am one of the fortunate TS sufferers. Thank you for your support Olwen. Five months on from the operation, I have the all clear and am walking. The heart is mending xxxxx
I have struggled with what to add to your other comments on this chapter. Of course, it is a wonderful chapter, you could write a menu and I would find it an enjoyable read, and given my cantankerous disposition, that is a true complement.
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I usually want to stuff too much in these comments, then I reread it and I am embarrassed how self-serving it is. I hope this is not the case now. Pixie, you know how I feel about you; your struggles make mine feel small, but to recount your challenges just makes them more than what they are.
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They are your day to day, something that boggles the mind given most of us are upset when our bagel isn't sliced right, or our commute takes 10 minutes longer than it should. But the truth is, although your TS is part of you, you don't let it define you. I know you struggled with even speaking of it, because it would label you "oh poor Pixie she has ..." but I say -- fuck that. Pixie you are who you are not because of TS but despite it and many other things into the mix.
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You are a remarkable person and would be with or without TS, so for what it is worth, thank you for sharing and I know it impacts you, but honestly, I don't concern myself with TS because it is, at least in my mind, simply a single facet in the wondrous jewel that is you. If I had never ever known about TS, you would still be the beloved daughter of my heart, the woman whose kind gentle nature saved my life. TS might be a partial reason for your uniqueness, a source of both pain and drive, but it does not define you, you have done that all by yourself despite TS. So, lest I prattle on, five stars from your adopted Mama S, I don't know what I will say in the next chapters, probably something silly knowing me. But just remember, we love you, and TS does not enter it one little bit. With love, XXXXX
Oh Mama - how can I thank you for this? I have always avoided admitting that my size is the result of TS, which is part of my refusal to let it define me. At one level that's silly, because literally, it shapes me. But at another level it is fat from silly, as it means I work with what I have been given to make the best of it - and that has served me well.
Thank you Mama, for all your help here xxxxx
Dr beulahthemick; Oh God, certainly didn't see that coming, now I'm beyond worried, just hope and pray that everything between you and June are ok. Love and hugs as always, beulah.
Wow!
Hallo Pixie!
What's left to say that hasn't already been said, and much better than I ever could!
Except you are a very beautiful, strong woman,,, yes!... Thank-You, 5-Stars..
The Black Queen and Gay Kat..
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Thank you for sharing your story, I can't imagine how many times you must have relived that experience writing about it. I admire your ability to be open about your pain.
I have no words my heart dropped. I'm going to keep hope alive. My aunts husband cheated on her, (son is in his 30s) got an outside baby on her. They just celebrated their 50th year anniversary.
That is cheering, J, it shows that you can come back, if there is enough love xxxxx