The Sun I Can't See Ch. 04

"Oh, stop whining for a minute and listen to me, hehe. I know two versions of you. The one you are today that is friendly, honest, adult, and not very smart."

"... Hey!"

"But there is the other Miles, that is confused and forgetful. That one tends to forget what he likes and dislikes and falls back in the same patterns that hurt him before. I don't like that Miles at all. Can you get rid of him? I think it would be a good thing because that dark Miles hurts the good Miles too. I don't want the good Miles to suffer."

"... Yeah... I see what you mean... I cared more about my fantasies than you. I knew it was wrong, and that's why I left. I didn't want to drag you into my shit any further. You have to know... I want to change... But in all honesty, I wouldn't know how... And saying that makes me realize that there is not much hope for us... You were right... I'm dumb."

His last little speech made me smile. In one sentence, he said that he loved me, that lost sight of that love, that he now knew what he did wrong, that he protected me against greater pain, and that our relationship was doomed.

He was right... There was no hope for us the way things were unless I opened a door big enough for the two of us to walk through as imperfect human beings.

"Mr. Miles. Friday 9 pm, Fox & Spice club. I'll probably be around the lounge."

"..."

I stood up, walked around the bench, and headed toward my apartment building.

"Alex? Wait! What..."

"Don't be late, Mr. Miles. Don't be late."

The Fox & Spice club would be our big door to a potentially better future. Could we walk through it together?

***

"You did WHAT? Did you get hit on the head or what?"

"Calm down, Meimei. I didn't say that Miles and I were back together. But I decided to allow us another chance to love each other."

"Aleeex! People can't change that fast. It has not even been two months. You are going to get hurt again."

"No, I won't. Because this is my decision, and I know what I'm getting into. When I invited him to the club, that was pretty much at the same time when he realized that it wouldn't work between the two of us."

"Alex... you are odd. What you say makes no sense."

"It does to me. Come on, just support me a little. I need your help."

It was pretty obvious that Mei disagreed with this little turn of events. I dragged her to the city's biggest fetish fashion store and only broke the news to her when we arrived. On Friday, we would go to the Fox & Spice together, and Miles would perhaps meet us there. I wanted Mary to come as well, but we hadn't managed to reach her yet.

"Okay, okay. Whatever! It's your love life. Not mine. So, what are we doing here? Do you need something specific?"

"Well, I don't want to go again with the same full latex catsuit I always wear. I need something different."

"Need or want?"

"Want!"

"Okay? Like a dress?"

"I don't know."

"You don't know?"

"No... Help me find something different."

"Something different? Alright... Grab my arm and let's go find something different."

It didn't take long for Mei to become ecstatic about everything she was looking at. I couldn't see anything, and she was really not good at describing what she was freaking out about. Of course, the store employees pounced on us rapidly, and as usual, I had to explain why I was wearing a silk blindfold. But overall, they were somewhat helpful and gave us a few ideas.

Amusingly enough, even if we came here for me, Meixiang found a little black latex dress that she liked a lot, so she was now trying it in the changing room. I waited on the small seat in front of it, while the employee brought me different items to help me make up my mind. Touching the various textiles convinced me that I didn't want gloves to numb my sense of touch this time around; my latex catsuit with attached gloves was very hot and sexy, but not very practical in my case; those sensitive fingertips were my eyes.

"Tadaaa! Alex, how do I look?"

"Very funny, I'm blind. What are you wearing?"

"I'm not telling you, you have to look at me... with your hands."

"Perv... Alright, come here."

Mei approached me, and I grabbed her hips. Since I was sitting, her big boobs were pretty much in my face. I started sliding my fingertips around to get a rough idea of what her dress was like.

"The skirt is short and frilly... I like that... and wait... oooh, there is a hole where your chest is... and there is a high neck... That's neat."

"Yes, so people can admire my boob crack."

"Haha... Puffy shoulders? Short sleeves? Hey... wait a minute... What's that piece dangling in front of your skirt? Naaaah... Don't tell me... Really? A latex maid uniform?"

"Awww, how did you guess so quickly?"

"I didn't guess. You let me touch you. I only guess what I can't touch."

"So serious... But yes... Maid uniform... But forget it. It's too expensive. At least I got to try one."

"I'm buying it for you."

"What? No, Alex! It's not why I said that. It's way too expensive!"

"Do you like it?"

"Yeah, but..."

"I'm buying it. But you have to wear it on Friday."

I got a giant hug from Mei, and then we continued shopping around for me. Unfortunately, I wasn't making it very easy. I just couldn't make up my mind on something I wanted to wear.

"Try this hat!"

"A hat?"

"Yes... Hahaha! Okay, no! Not for you!"

"Stop teasing me, Mei. Come on! You have to find something I like."

"Alright, alright! But you are picky, and there is not much left to try."

She pulled the strange hat from my head, but she accidentally pinched my blindfold at the same time. The silk fabric slid right off my head and disappeared. Surprised, I immediately turned toward where I thought it went, trying to grab it back, but instead, I slapped Mei right across the face with the back of my hand.

"Ooow!"

"Oooo! Sorry! I'm so sorry, Mei! Are you okay? I feel so bad!"

"Oh... My... God... Alex! You... You just opened your eyes in front of me..."

"..."

Blood rushed up to my head because of my embarrassment, and I immediately covered my eyes using my forearm. Mei had seen me a couple of times without my blindfold, but I had never opened my eyes around her. Based on her reaction, it was a shocking sight. One that reminded me of all the kids that made fun of me when I was young.

"... Sorry... Sorry... Give me my blindfold back."

"No... wait! Open them again."

"What? NO! I told you... They look weird!"

"You are weird, Alex, not your eyes... Come on... Open them for me... I need to see them again."

"Mei... I..."

"Hey, you saw all my private spots with your fingers earlier... Let me see all your private spots with my eyes... That's only fair..."

"..."

I was scared... but... Mei expressed a valid point. She let me grab her boobs and butt so I would know what she was wearing... I could probably trust her a bit more. It was easy for me to open them in front of the doctors. So why was I scared of doing it here, in front of my best friend?

"O... Okay... But don't make mean comments."

"I'd never do that... and nobody else is watching."

"Okay... There... Happy?"

"Alex! They are AMAZING! Follow me. You just gave me an idea. I found a perfect costume for you to wear on Friday."

"Wait... what? Really? What does it have to do with my eyes?"

It was the first time someone qualified my eyes of "amazing" and it made me feel all fuzzy inside. I expected something more along the line of "it's not that bad." Mei grabbed my hand and pulled me across the store. What was she going to do to me?

***

"This is a bad idea!"

"No, it's not. You'll be the star of the night."

"Where is my blindfold."

"In your bag, but you are not wearing it tonight, you promised!"

"I diiid... buuut..."

"Stop whining. Let me put your mask on, and then we can go have fun. Mary is waiting for us."

"I have a bad feeling about this, Mei..."

"Too late to change your mind. You have to trust me on this."

Mei strapped on my head a rubber mask that covered my upper face, completing my new costume. We arrived at the Fox & Spice club a little while ago and turned Mary back into my guide doggy. Then Mei put on her new latex maid uniform before taking care of me.

The outfit she picked for me was drastically different than what I could have imagined. When we were at the fashion boutique, she made me wear a latex bodysuit; this one had no hands, feet, or hood. She forced me to walk around a bit, complimenting me because I looked "hot," but that was until she told me that it was translucent and that people could see me naked through it. I wanted to die... or kill her. Smokey black... That was what she said the color was. She also said that the black seams were standing out, making it look sharp.

Following my fuss, Mei made me wear some sort of silky skirt that was, in fact, just two extra long fabric bands, one in front to hide my crotch and one at the back that partly hid my butt, leaving my rubber legs exposed fully. That thing was going all the way down to my feet too. She said it made me look like a Goddess, but I just felt naked, even with the matching bra that she made me wear.

To finalize my outfit, she found that very special rubber mask. When she placed it on my face, the whole store had a crazy strong reaction and wanted pictures of me. That was pretty much what sold it to me because I was still not convinced.

Exploring the mask with my fingers left me confused. It had some sort of fine muzzle with very long ears. Mei said it was a black Egyptian style fox mask.

Now that we were at the club, I would have to wear this costume in front of everybody.

"There... You look amazing! You look so powerful... Try to act the part."

"Are... Are you sure nobody can see my eyes?"

"Ah, stop with your eyes already! No, they can't see them. The mask's lenses are too dark. MARY!? Come get Alex. She is ready."

At least that would take my mind off my discomfort; my sister as a doggy. As soon as she got close to me, I grabbed her harness. She didn't have a leash today as she said it was pulling too much on her neck, so instead, we just looped a leather strap through the metal rings in the middle of her harness' back; it made her feel even more guide doggish this way.

I couldn't help but recheck her head. Mary wore her super cute rubber muzzle and her pointy ears; something snapped inside me every time I got to touch her while she was wearing that kit. She was just the cutest thing in the world, and I couldn't help but talk to her like she was a real pet.

"Aaaah! So cute! Little doggy."

"Alex! I'm going to bite you."

"Naaah! You are too adorable for that. Go, go! Let's go back to the club! Lead the way!"

We all exited the changing room and entered the club. It sounded like there was already a fair amount of people, and it only took less than half a second before the compliments started pouring our way. Mei grabbed my arm and whispered something in my ears.

"Seriously, that is all for you, Alex. You stand out like crazy."

"That much?"

"Yeah... You'll be so busy tonight. Don't let Mary go, though, or else you are going to get swallowed by the crowd."

"Not a chance that I'm letting my guide dog go."

This experience was nuts! Simply nuts! It was as if everybody from the club came talking to me about my costume. The mask I was wearing was not something many people had seen before; the store that sold it to me would surely get a few new clients.

"Mei! The music is good. I want to dance."

"You go do that. I will take a walk around to see what is happening tonight. Mary, make sure you protect her."

"Arf!"

"Awww... She barked!"

My cute puppy Mary tugged me slowly to the dance floor. As soon as I felt the texture changing under my heeled boots, I unleashed my dancing power. My little trip to the dance cage long ago taught me not to be shy about my curves and moves in a fetish club. On top of that, I had Mary to keep me out of trouble. I knew she liked to dance as well, so I could abuse this activity to my heart content without any guilt.

It was so great and so fun. Obviously, many hands touched me, and some guys tried to get too close to me, but Mary was doing an excellent job at interfering when they were going too far. My sister seemed comfortable in that role, another trait making her a good guide dog. A couple of times, she even had to be more vocal and threatening when the guys refused to cooperate.

We danced for waaay too long, and I almost forgot why I decided to come here tonight; Miles was supposed to show up around 9 pm... Well... It was more like a suggestion, and there was no guarantee that he would even show up. Focusing on fun was the wise thing to do.

Two small arms wrapped around my waist, interfering with my thoughts; I recognized Mei.

"Mei? Where were you? Mary and I have been dancing for over an hour."

"Sorry... I kind of found a room in the play area... You know... There was another maid... and it was this guy's birthday and..."

"Aaah... I get it... So... Did you find him?"

"Miles?"

"Who else?"

"Yeah... I saw him. He is sitting at the bar... alone. He probably has no clue who you are because of your costume. So many pretty girls tonight."

"Okay, let's do this then. Let's go find a seat in the lounge, then will go get him."

Mary tugged me away from the dance floor and guided me to the comfy social area where the music was much softer. We were lucky because the corner booth was available. It would be nice to spend some time together there. Our plan with Miles around was simple, have plain old fun with no drama. Leaving love out of the equation would make everything easier.

"Mary, go fetch Miles!"

"What? Why me? Go yourself, Mei."

"Alex, your dog is not trained well. She doesn't listen to me."

"I know. Maybe I should be stricter. Perhaps Mary needs more spanking with that paddle Nyssa gave me."

"Alright, alright! I'm going... geez. But don't blame me if he doesn't want to follow me."

***

Mary had to cross the lounge and half of the club to reach the bar. She vaguely remembered Miles because she only saw him once in poor circumstances. It was the night when she had kissed her sister by accident. It was unlikely that he would recognize her because of her dog attire, which gave her an idea.

She and Alex grew up together, and, unfortunately, she witnessed all the pain that her blind sister went through. From kids rejecting her at school to the incessant name-calling and all those failed dates with guys that couldn't treat her like a normal person. Yes, Mary knew that Alex had gone through hell, and it was so unfair.

It was somewhat ironic that she was about to fetch a guy who badly hurt her sister, which had high potential to hurt her again. From what she understood, a guy that had been more focused on his fetishes than the person itself.

Why was Alex giving a second chance to this individual was beyond Mary's comprehension. Could he have changed that much in just over a month? It was highly unlikely. No, Mary didn't like this one bit, but it was not for her to decide... or was it?

When she reached the bar, Miles was sitting by himself in a corner, sipping on a drink of some sort. Mary approached and climbed on the free stool next to him.

"Hey? Feeling lonely?"

"Mmm... No, I'm good. I am just waiting for someone."

Miles didn't recognize Mary, which caused her to grin behind her muzzle.

"Do you mind if I keep you company?"

"Aaah... I'm sorry, I'm just waiting for a friend. Not looking for anything else."

"How come? You don't like pet girls?"

"Oh, no. It's not that... It's just... ah... nevermind..."

"Ah, come on! I want to chat for a bit. I'm bored. My name is Ann, what's yours?"

"... Miles."

"Aren't you going to buy me a drink, Miles?"

"Sorry, as I said... I'm not looking for a date and..."

"A date? Can't you just buy a drink for a lonely pet girl? With a straw please... You know... the muzzle."

"Hehe... Okay, I can get you a drink because you are friendly. Order what you want."

Mary ordered a Bloody Caesar, with a straw, and moved a bit closer to Miles.

"So... Miles... Tell me about this friend of yours."

"Aaah, it's a long story."

"I have time. Is she cute?"

"I didn't say my friend was a girl."

"I bet she is. What's her name?"

"Yes, she is a girl... Her name is Alex. And yes, she is very cute."

"So, why the gloomy face? Something happened?"

"Am I really discussing this with a dog girl?"

"Haha! Yes you are! Come on. I'm a good listener... Tell me."

Miles took a good sip from his glass, visibly uncomfortable because of all the personal questions the undercover Mary threw at him. Somehow, this was awkward, but it also felt good to offload his failed romance story on a friendly stranger.

"Ann, you are quite something. Yes, something happened. I loved Alex very much, but I got carried away, and I messed up."

"What do you mean?"

"I dragged her in my fantasies, you know, fetish stuff, and she wasn't ready for it..."

"She wasn't ready!?"

"... No, scratch that... See, I mess up again... That's what I do apparently... What I mean is that I exposed her to all the things that turned me on, she was playing along... but then..."

"... but then?"

"I forgot to love her... I mean... outside my fetish, I didn't treat her right."

"So, she dumped you?"

"Nah... I ran away as soon as I realized that I was dragging her into some things without asking if she wanted to approach them differently first... I did this with my ex, who was a totally different person, and it didn't end well. So, yeah, I'm a coward because I ran away, but I didn't want her to suffer because of me."

Mary starred at Miles in disbelief. He was entirely honest, even though it made him look like a douchebag. But at least she understood that there was hope and that he was probably done playing games. She decided to push her assessment just a bit farther.

"Ah, forget about her! She is not worth it."

"..."

"What?... I'm just giving you advice."

"Why would I do that? Why do you think Alex is not worth it? You don't even know her."

"Do you like what I look like, Miles? I'm a sexy pet wearing latex and leather... Don't you like that?"

"Of course, I do. You are very attractive."

"While wearing this outfit, I send a positive signal that I'm ready to play. I wouldn't let real life get in the way. Who cares about being a couple... It's just dampening the fun. Wouldn't you be happier with a girl like me that is always ready to play?"

"..."

Mary got off her stool and reached Miles with her arms. She lifted her rubber muzzle just enough to expose her lips and quickly approached Miles' face. With her muzzle now covering her eyes, she challenged him through a murmur.

"I can't see... You can do whatever you want to me... You have three seconds to kiss me..."

"Wait... Ann... I..."

"Three... Fun... or a boring moody girlfriend? What will you choose?"

"..."

"Two... Kiss me now while you can... I'll make you feel amazing... all night long."

"Ann... You... You are very attractive but..."

"But what? You said it... I'm attracting you... last chance, Miles..."

Miles placed his two hands on each side of Mary's face.

"One!"

... and he pushed her away, gently, and pulled her muzzle back into place.

"Sorry, Ann... I appreciate the offer... I'm sure it would have been great to spend the night with you, you are beautiful, but I love Alex... more than anything. And if there is a chance that I can go back to her tonight, I'll take that chance."

"Aaah! I didn't think you had it in you... Impressive. Maybe she was not as out of her mind as I thought."

"..."

"My name is not Ann. I'm Mary, her sister. Don't you recognize me?"