Dreams of My Desire

I just loved the way you slowly created the character of Stephanie and her journey to this marvelous experience. It is hard to see how she can stay with her husband and I applaud her bravery in following the call of her heart.

WOW!

I can understand blocking on where this goes from here. You've painted yourself into a wonderful little corner. Infidelity is such a tricky, tricky thing for a writer. Western society has so completely bought into the male centric concept that is marriage that it's become "immoral" to violate it. It is, in effect, a legal contract that guarantees you don't have to work at keeping a relationship. The entire concept is so completely male and descends from male centric western religions trying to make sure females "keep their place".

Without such an institution, neither could take the other for granted. There would be constant motivation to accommodate, negotiate, compromise, to become and stay equals. Any significant imbalance of power and one party of the other walks away. Married, you cannot do that (easily). The legal concept of marriage is bad for society.

Making that argument (which is central the future fiction I write) however does not make Steph's infidelity automatically justified because neither she nor Paul have no idea about that philosophic argument. They're just living the life everyone else in society has told them is right.

No, the fault here is with Steph, but NOT for the infidelity. Her mistake was sexual dishonesty. She had this "sexual thing" that she was too embarrassed to tell her husband about so they could figure out what to do about together.

To a lesser degree, Paul is guilty of it, too. He has a "messy pussy" issue. But at least he has told her about it. He's just decided to do nothing about it; that speaks of both dishonesty and indifference.

In fact, 90% of the infidelity stories I read here have the same cause, lack of honesty in the relationship (and I don't mean just those that are actually married).

The only other kinds of infidelity stories I see here are what I call sociopath relationships; someone has a mental defect causing it. Sociopaths and psychopaths are generally crutches for writers who cannot figure out how to develop the situation they want, so they make the character "crazy", usually without any explained cause. To me? Crazy is always boring. But that's not the case here, thank the gods.

I really loved the angst here. But, I'd like to hear Monica's side of the story, too. Starting back when she developed her early crush on Steph. It'd make her a real character in the story and not just a McGuffin. And that is *especially* true if you aim this story toward them being together forever.

One point that bugged me:

Not that it can be (or should be) changed now, but it struck me as strange that a 20-year wife who was apparently a happy heterosexual would dream about a female tongue in her pussy. Her only experience in that department was with males. Why switch to females. Unless there's something deep down that she's been ignoring or suppressing that is finally coming out. But there didn't seem to be any cause for the sudden switch to lesbianism at 43.

You really need to continue this story. I think it s one of the best stories I have ever read on this site. The build up was perfect.

Thank you all for the positive feedback! I have been dealing with a huge bout of writers block or something and it feels good to finally release a few things. This story has been sitting unfinished for a few years, along with a few others. Yes, I did leave open the possibility of a part 2, but I just need to figure out what’s going to happen. I have a few ideas floating around though.

Thoroughly enjoyed this piece — introspective, humorous, even poignant in moments, wonderfully erotic and well paced. So satisfying to see Stephanie find sexual fulfillment and maybe more. Thanks for continuing to share your talent.